Digital Souls | Running Away From Love: The Prodigy

Gemu NY

JASON

My eyes searched for Kuma vigorously at the countdown. Everyone helped me search so I wouldn't miss her. As soon as I heard "Three - Two - One.." I felt someone grab my face and throw their lips on mine. I grabbed her wrists to take her hands off me and shove whoever it was the fuck away from me.

Those hands, those lips.. we're not my Katana's. That's for fucking sure. I saw Rhonda pull her away and scream obscenities at her. When I saw who it was, I'm not a woman hitter, but I wanted to throw my hands over her neck and choke the shit out of her. I saw Katana walk out of the building doors.

I followed her as fast as I could. I made it to her right when she locked herself in. She dug her head into her hands on her steering wheel.

FUCK! I'm not one to talk based on my behavior in the past, and that's a whole different story, but Sabrina sure has bad conduction all around.

I tapped gently on her window beside her. The weather meant nothing to me at that point, I would stand there all night long if it took.
She looked up at me with flowing tears.. If cosmic power could make me feel how broken her heart felt, I felt it too..
..She looked away from me..
..and I heard the doors unlock.

I rounded myself to the passenger side and got in. I wasn't quite sure how to approach her in this mood. I've found her in a drunken state times before, but Katana is now in her right mind. No thanks to that sleez, Sabrina.

Katana sat quietly sobbing into her steering wheel. I wanted to hold her and let her cry it out. I could feel my own chest tightening up in my own heartbreak. This didn't feel like a normal night where she wakes up in my arms and everything is cool. This felt different. This felt, big. I needed to break the silence and the sound of her breath letting out tears. I braced myself for anything she would throw at me as long as it wasn't silence.

Do something, Katana. Scream at me, even lash out at me with your kickboxing moves. I don't care. I'm here.

"I'm sorry, Bear. I didn't know she was gonna do that to us. I pushed her away and..." Everything I've just said, trailed off and Katana interrupted with the look she gave me. I stopped talking. She lifted her head slowly and closed her eyes. She took a deep sigh and slowly turned her head in my direction. Imagine the scariest movie you'd ever seen, and the monster or villain gives you that calm demonic look right before they devour or destroy your soul into a million pieces. I could have sworn her eyes turned from innocent beautiful green, to demonic and hellish red.

Here it is. Let me have it, Katana. Let me see your beast. You can only break me, Kuma.

She spoke calm and soberly, "You rich guys are all.. exactly.. the same.

There it is.

I nodded at her in agreement. I stayed quiet, even though she was wrong.

"You want your cake, and eat it too. You have it. You want your trophy girl, and your girl on the side to sleep with. She can give you that. I get it."

I smiled at how wrong she was. "Yeah, Kuma. You have it all figured out about me."

You dumb fuck, Lew. Why'd you say anything at all?

"It was pointless for us to even bring each other around each others families. I don't know what I was thinking." She unlocked the car doors again.

Ouch, Kuma.

"Just get out of my car, Jason. Go inside. You have a whole event to get back to. I'll be fine right here."

I stared at her for a while. I shifted my eyes at the keys in her ignition and then back at her again.

"I'm not gonna drive, Jason." She said with an attitude. She yanked the keys from her ignition and passed them to me. "Give these to Rhoni Roo. Have her bring these to me when she leaves."

I stared at her keys for a minute fidgeting with them. I wanted to say something. I wanted to grab her and kiss her and scream 'Fuck Sabrina, that fucking whore' and lay Katana in the back seat of that Porsche of hers and make love to her. I didn't want to go back inside. Screw my party event. Nothing matters right now in this moment.

"Jason Shinzo, can you get out of my car now? Please." She said dismissively.

"You're unbelievable, Kuma." I got out. She didn't say anything back. She stared out of her driver side window and shook her head slowly.

Idiot. Why do you speak, Lew?

I gave Katana her space. I went back inside to bring my event to its close, since it was after midnight. People were starting to leave anyway. When I was the last one to leave, I noticed Katana's car was gone from the spot she'd parked it.

I text Rhon.

Me: How did Katana get home?

Rhonda: She was sober than a prude when I left, so I gave her the keys.

Me: ...........

Rhonda: She's fine. She text Marsh and I once she got to her spot.

Me: Thanks.

Rhonda: I tried to tell her what happened, Jase. She just isn't having any of it from anyone right now. Give her space and time away from everyone's bullshit. Talk to her in the morning. Drive safely. Roads are wild through that mountain.

Me: Thanks Ron.

I hadn't slept in my own house in days. I've been with Katana every single night since Christmas. It just seemed natural to drive to her house right away, but knowing she was upset with me, I went home to my big empty and lonely home.

I walked in through the door of my bedroom. My heart in my chest felt heavy. I could feel the lump in my throat ready to burst like I was a 12yr old boy getting his heart broken for the first time. "This house contains no Katana." I said bitterly to myself out loud. I threw my keys down on the ground, took my clothes off, and went to bed.