The mind of a messed up person

Fly

Fly
Like a bird
But to fly like a bird you have to be as light as a bird
Or you sink
You sink to the river under this bridge
You'll fall
Wind in your hair
A feeling of free
From the world
From your pain
Problem is you hit the water
All that pain that you felt comes rushing to ur feet
Up your body
Water constricting you like your demons once did
Suffocating you
Dancing around your struggling body
It's cold grasp around your neck
Like the memories of his kisses
Cool and calming but sickly sweet
Water surrounding you like his arms once did
Except they don't let you go
The water doesn't go away like the pain did
Once you drank a whole bottle and took a bottle of pills
No this water is stubborn
You can struggle
Toss
Turn
But the water doesn't go away
Like the night mares you have
It stays
So fly
If your light as a bird
Or be ready to sink