my crazy life

Anastasia

I decided to continue to do the point of view but instead of both in one chapter each will have their chapter.  enjoy your read 

ANASTASIA 

it's been one week since that night between Antonio and me and it's been kind of awkward lately. you can tell that both of us want to bring it up but we don't want to step on each other's toes either.  the kids have been at school all week so thankfully, that allowed us to create a little bit of distance besides phone calls. Tonight is the weekend and I know we have to talk about it eventually. 

" Make sure you put everything in your bag, your dad should be here any minute," I said to Jacob as I helped him fold the last of his clothes. Heaven was already packed and had her bag waiting for us at the door.

clearly she's a daddy's girl already and i really love that for her 

" you know that day daddy was here in the morning ?" heaven started making me look at her" when can he do that again?" she said placing her undivided attention on me while Jacob did the same. I knew at one point one of them would bring that up.

 I encouraged them to ask questions no matter how uncomfortable it may make me because if it affects them , they deserved to know. 

"I'm not sure baby, I'll talk to him about it one day" 

" can it be soon ? I'd like to have a sleepover one day" Jacob said zipping up his bag. I nodded my head in response hoping to get them to drop the conversation. I know  it's something I need to speak to him about . I'm not upset because he did help me a lot but that doesn't change the fact that we should've talked about that first. given the circumstances, I think I can give him a pass. 

" I really liked having him here" 

" I'll work on making something happen until then were going to keep our routine okay" I said looking at both of them. They nodded in agreement but I  could see the slight disappointment in their eyes. I shook it off continuing to help Jacob get his bag together for his weekend with his dad. by the time we finished we heard the doorbell ring and little footsteps followed behind. I didn't too much worry about them opening the door because they knew better to open the door without the Prescence of an adult. I headed down the steps before opening the door. 

He looked good 

He sported all black with a gold chain and a gold cross earing dangling from his ear. His cologne made its way into my nostrils making me want to sigh in satisfaction. I could tell he got a fresh haircut and retwist because his line up was crisp and his two strand twist were neatly framing his face. 

" Hey daddy" heaven clung to his legs making him beam down at her. He looked at me one last time before picking her up and giving her a kiss on the cheek. Placing her down he did the same to Jacob making him smile softly. 

" Hey baby, yall go get your bags while I talk to your mom" he said fully stepping into the house. I closed the door before making my way to the couch while the kids went to go do what their dad said to do.

 He took a seat next to me studying my body language " i just wanted to clear the air" he started " shit been kind of awkward since that night happened" he said looking at me waiting for my response. I just looked at him letting him know that he continued 

I lowkey wanted to hear what he had to say just incase I ended up putting my foot in my mouth

" that night was amazing for me honestly and the morning after was even better. I know we're still building a relationship with the kids but i loved making love , waking up to you in the morning, and waking my kids up in the morning" he started making butterflies pop up in my stomach " I'm not going to lie and say that night didn't make me want more of you because it did. I'm stuck right where you don't want me to be but i wont pressure you" 

" I'm scared to let you back in the same way that I did back in the day. its been hard raising them on my own and i want them to get to know you more before we even consider doing anything outside of what we have right now. that night was amazing and much needed but I'm scared if we continue to do that a lot of things will be lost in translation" 

" like what " 

" like just going to wake the kids" i started " I know the intentions were good but it left the kids confused and now I have to pick up the pieces" I  said running my fingers through my hair stressfully" what are they saying?" he rubbed his hands on his pants out of nervousness. i could see the beads of sweat starting to form on his forehead. 

" they're saying that they want you to come over in the morning more often" 

" if you allow, I'd like to come and wake them up the first and last Monday of the month" man coparenting with this man is so easy. he always has a quick solution and its normally so sensible 

" that we can do" 

" I'd also like to apologize for that shit too, i should've thought about the long term effects but I really didn't think about it like that. I really just wanted to help you out" he said looking me in the eyes to prove his sincerity

" as far as the sex" i started hoping I said the right thing" I'm not begging for it but I'm not opposed to it. however, if that's something we decide to do testing needs to be done on both ends .If we decide to not do condoms we need to be prepared for what comes with unprotected sex. most importantly we need to keep that separate from our kids " I continued" There shouldn't be any confusion on either end. I know you're single but you know how I get down so be sure you're ready to drop whatever hoes you need to before crossing that lane with me" 

I say it all the time but I needed to be real with myself. I'm a woman with needs with a fine ass baby daddy that knows how to handle me. there isn't a need to go waste a body when the man that knows  what I like and how I like it was right there 

" I'll have my appointment booked by the end of the week. Let me go get the kids so we can get up outta here" he said before standing. I followed  behind him as he gently grabbed me from the couch. His touch was soft as he bent down and captured my lips in a kiss. My eyes closed in satisfaction as our tongues enjoyed each others mouth. A loud smack was heard in the room as he smacked my ass slightly and palmed my cheek making me moan into the kiss

" I'll talk to you later beautiful" he said before making his way up to the steps leaving me stuck in place 

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