my crazy life

Anastasia

1 week later

Anastasia smiled as she had dinner with her children and Antonio. Heaven was released from the hospital a week ago and she was doing much better. Her breathing had returned to normal but she was feeling slight cold symptoms. As much as Jacob wanted to stay home with his sister he knew he had to go to school.

Daily he came home with a story about how much her classmates and friends missed her and wished her well. He was soaking up his sister's attention and would milk it as much as he could.

She was happy to have her baby girl home and back in good health, and she prayed she never went through something like this again. Antonio stepped in perfectly to ensure she had as much help as possible. Every morning, he showed up early to make lunches for Jacob and breakfast for the girls. He took Jacob to and from school and stayed until both kids were put to bed.

She was grateful but couldn't help but notice how distant he became over this week.

He wasn't as affectionate behind closed doors and it seemed like all he wanted to talk to her about was the kids. As soon as he got done helping her he was out the door and going about his day. She wonderd if she did something wrong but she wouldn't make a fool of herself and ask.

" she peed her self dad" Jacob laughed as he told him a story about this girl in his class who peed on herself because she was having too much fun with her friends at lunch "Don't make fun of that girl," he said laughing at his son's silliness. He was bordeline drooling how hard he was laughing.

" did anybody notice?" heaven asked fully engrossed in the tea her brother was spilling

" no, i gave her my jacket before anybody else could"

" aww that was so sweet of you baby" his momma said as his dad gave him a high five

" i would want somebody to do that for heaven " him saying that made her smile so hard. he was so chivalrous and she prayed he stayed that way for the rest of his life. he's always been sweet but ever since his dad came its been tenfold. it reminded her that she made the right choice letting him into their life.

the family dinner didnt last much longer as everybody became full. she stole glances at antonio, catching his eyes on hers multiple times.

she wanted to address the elephant in the room so bad

as she cleaned up in the kitchen she listened to him get the kids ready for bed. tomorrow would be friday and he would be getting them over the weekend again. they were going to be missed but she was going out with Erica this weekend and she was ready to have a time.

" alright , im bout to head out of here, make sure you lock up" he said as he started putting his shoes on at the door

" why have you been so distant" she asked as she started to walk towards him. her heart started to skip a beat as he started to look like he was confused by what she was asking. it was pissing her off because he knew exactly what she meant

" what do you mean"

" ever since i kicked you out the last time you've been distant. not making passes at me, you dont want to talk to me unless it has to do with the kids-- hell i cant even get a joke out of you"

" i didn't mean to become distant but with everything thats been going on i felt it was best"

"why would you think that? if anything i would need you more"

" thats the problem i want to be with you guys more than ever now and i know i cant have you the way i want to" he started " this whole ordeal made me realize i want my family" he stressed. even though she was happy to hear this from him she was upset that she was. she liked what they had going on despite her  feelings for him. she wanted to keep him at arms length because she was afraid of being hurt.

" why can't you just be satisfied with what you have " she stressed " i mean you get to have me whenever you want and you get to see the kids whenever you want with no strings attached"

" because it's not enough!" he said walking up to her slightly " im in love with you and you just choose to ignore it bru. im a grown ass man i want more than just a hookup with my baby momma! i want to raise our kids together and treat you how you deserve to be treated. you think i like fucking you then leaving you to deal with our kids on your own ? i hate that shit. i hate not waking up to yall in the morning"

" well if you didnt walk out on us maybe that couldve been a possibility" she regretted it the moment that shit slipped out her mouth. the silence and the look on his face made her regret it even more. she hurt him and he was a good man. hes proved it so many times and it still didnt count. he took a step back and pushed his lips together because he had nothing else to say.

" i think its best that we keep things strictly for the kids" he said after a moment of silence. he loved her but he wasnt going to beg her . he thought he could show her he wasnt the same man that he wasn't the same 18-year-old boy. it was clear he wouldnt be able to and he would learn to be okay with that

" im sorry, i didn't mean to say that"

" i'll see yall in the morning" he said before he walked out the door and into his car. she watched desperatley wanting to call him back.