my crazy life

Chapter 8

Hey yall! It's honestly been a long time since I've updated this book . I used to love writing and part of the reason of why I started writing is because I could get away from the trauma I was experiencing. Unfortunately, things got really bad for me my junior year of college and it seemed like everything went downhill. I won't go into detail but it got so bad I almost made an attempt on my life . I just really wasn't in the right space to be writing. I'm happy to say that I am finally out of that space and have been for the past two years . I've been growing my business, I've graduated college , I've met an amazing man , became an auntie , healed a lot , and just taken control of my life again .

With that said I'm in a much better place to write . I know this book has probably lost its fan base long ago and I'm perfectly fine with that. This book will now serve as a safe space for me to just be creative and hopefully if you're reading you enjoy. I will keep the previous chapters and edit but also just go from there. I am in the process of finding my writing style again but honestly I'm just here to express myself. If you're reading this thank you for being apart of this journey with me . I pray that everything is well with you guys

Cheers to a new beginning and finding ourselves

With love , Nadi

Antonio

I woke up with Anastasia sound asleep in my arms while the sun tried to peak through her black out curtains. It 6:30 in the morning and it was time for the kids to start getting ready for school.

Instead of waking her up I just decided to get them ready myself. I knew they'd be confused by me being here early in the morning but I wanted to show her I could be an asset to her life and she could trust me.

Last night was amazing and I honestly had no intentions on going that far. I really did just want to taste her but getting to feel her under me for the first time in almost a decade felt good. I kept her up late into the night making up for lost time. Tasting her and watching her shake in pleasure did nothing but make me crave her even more. She still had a gold mine in her legs and that mouth game got even more lethal

There was no way I was leaving her alone now

Getting up from the bed I put my clothes on then went to go get the kids from their rooms. It was nearing 6:45 and we needed to get a move on if we wanted to make it on time.

" wake up baby" I lightly shook heaven awake " it's time to get ready for school" I kissed her forehead next watching her slightly stir in her sleep before she opened her eyes. A big smile graced her face as she noticed it was me " good morning daddy" she said as she stretched her little limbs " good morning baby , get your brother up and get started on getting ready for school. Do you need help with your clothes ?" I asked picking her up

" no thank you , I got it , can we have bacon for breakfast"

" I'll make that and some toast with some apple slices.  You guys get ready and meet me at the breakfast table" I said before making my way out the door . I heard her waking Jacob before I made my way down the steps. Making them breakfast took no time and as soon as I finished cutting my last apple slice they both came down stairs dressed.

Jacob kept his look casual with a pair of jeans , a solid black shirt , and fall colored flannel thrown over it. His hair was looking curly in his crisp line up . His little gold chain that I bought him decorated his neck.

Heaven had a on a beautiful purple and pink dress with a white unicorn placed in the middle of it. The bottom resembled a tutu a little bit and she made it pop with some white leggings. Her hair was braided to perfection and her ears sported some studs in them

" Yall look good" I said placing their plates in front of them . Glancing at the clock I noticed we had 30 minutes to eat, brush our teeth , and head out the door if we wanted to be on time

"Did you spend the night?" Jacob asked as he bit into his bacon. I didn't take any offense to his question

" no , mommy was really tired last night so she asked me to take care of you guys this morning" I stated putting some orange juice on the table and taking a seat to join them

" I like having you here with us in the morning"

" I like it too" I said feeling slightly guilty knowing I started a little bit of confusion . We enjoyed breakfast before I got them ready to be out the door and in their seats . It didn't take me long to get them to school or for them and Kaliyah to rob me of some lunch money. After droppjng them off I headed home to get my day started.

Anastasia

Shooting out of my sleep I looked around in the room in a panic

The house way too quiet

Looking at the time I realized It was 11:00 in the morning making me gasp in shock. I never slept in this late and it's all thanks to Antonio. The sex was good as hell I can't lie . Way better than when we were doing it as teens but I couldn't let that knock me off my swivel.

It didn't really help that I wanted more of it

I just feel like adding sex to our dynamic would complicate things for us . The kids would expect us to get together and I don't know if I want to go down that road again. He was a great father to the kids and since hes been in the kids life it has been a lot easier . I just can't let go of the fact that he was the one that made it so hard to begin with.

He didn't have to have two jobs while trying to get a degree just so the kids could have something to eat. Yeah my parents sent money but it wasn't enough for us to live comfortably. It was barely enough to make groceries on a consistent basis . He didn't have to stay up on multiple nights because one of the twins didn't want to sleep . He didn't lose nights of sleep because both kids caught a fever.

I went through that alone because of him

I liked what we had now . It was no drama and the kids were happier . I don't want to ruin that for them letting my emotions come to play

I took the kids to school today and left some breakfast for you in the microwave. Talk to you later

I read from my phone after checking it for any notifications. Reading that I laid back down and took my time getting out the bed . I had to check on my online business and do a couple article checklist for work but as long as I had it done by the end of the week I'd be straight.

I could get used to this