roommates

confused

previously:

i didn't realize it but my fists were clenched tightly. i stopped myself when i saw that my palms were red and my knuckles were white from how tight i was holding it.

i slowly walked away rush back to where i was first standing. it was at that exact moment where i knew. i didn't have to second guess it because i knew...

i still love him. fvck i still love him!

<seokjins pov>

we were all waiting for sunhee to drop her things off in the lobby of our dorms. things have been good. taehyung and i made up, jay and i have been seeing each other more often, and sunhee and i have gotten closer.

we (tae, jin, and jay) we're still waiting for sunhee when jay grabbed me and pushed me up against a tree. i didn't know what he was doing. i could only blush. i have been doing that a lot lately.

he looked into my eyes and i looked into his. 'his eyes are so beautiful...' i get lost in his eyes as does he in mine. his eyes go down to my lips and before i could say or do anything. he crashes his lips on mine.

i haven't kissed someone in awhile. a long time in fact. the last time i kissed someone was with taehyung which was about 3 years ago. this kiss was different though. i couldn't explain it, it felt right and wrong.

my heart needs something to complete it, and half of it is saying 'he's the one jin stop hurting yourself and letting the loneliness take over!' but then the other half keeps saying 'jin stop. you won't find anything but pain here'

my body seemed to ignore the part where i'd find pain with jay. and i started kissing him back. slow and passionate. i tilt my head to the side so he can get better access to my mouth. are lips are moving in sync.

it feels so euphoric. but then again, that could be what you feel after not kissing anyone for so long. but i didn't care, at this moment i felt content and most importantly happy. we soon pulled away when our lungs couldn't take it and we both needed oxygen.

i was panting as was he. my eyes were closed and our foreheads rest against each other. i felt like someone was watching but i still kept my eyes closed. what drove me back to pay attention was when we heard sunhee saying "guys i'm back!"

we slowly came out from behind the tree. no one seemed to have seen us, and i was happy with that. but something still felt off. taehyung was looking at me- no scratch that glaring at me. i didn't know why.

we just came to the dorms so sunhee can drop off her things, and we were all going to watch a movie. we were going to watch a scary one. though i hate scary things i still was down to go. i didn't want to bum everyone out either.

we took an uber to the theater and got our tickets. we went to buy our foods. and entered our cinema. the seating went:
sunhee, taehyung, me, jay
(a/n the spots are important ^-^）

the previews were on and just like normal people do when there on, we head on our phones. we get off them when we hear that one m&m ad saying "cellphones disturb movies. turn them off"

the lights dim down and soon turn off and we shifted into our comfortable positions and recline the chairs back a bit.

we're a couple of minutes into the movie but all of sudden a freaking nun comes and screams at the damn screen. i cover my mouth to prevent a scream and hold onto the closest hand next to mine tightly.