roommates

healing, for all of us...

previously:

and the only thing that was heard was the slap jin put across his face.

a red handprint was left on jays face and the crowd of people surrounding them made "oos" and "ahh"s. jin stared at jay who was now holding his stinging cheek, and said to him in a stern voice. "hope you choke on that, you dick" before grabbing taehyungs arm and dragging him out the building and to the dorm.

leaving a defeated jay behind. his entire plan was ruined and now to add the cherry on top. he believes his feelings for jin weren't just and act, but indeed true. he suffered two great losses but somehow he feels a spark of courage build inside him. though he lost this fight, he's not giving up anytime soon.

his cat was out the bag.

<seokjins pov>

I grabbed taehyungs arm and pushed the crowd out the way. some teachers were informed of the noise and brawl in the halls, more and more kids left allowing an easier way for us to leave. once we made it outside I stopped and looked up at him. his face still red from the hits he received. he saw my face with tears and his expression softened. he hugged me and I simply buried my head in the crook of his neck. he hugged my waist tightly and I shudder out a shaky breath and pulled away.

staring at him, he held my cheek rubbing it with his long fingers. I moved into the touch, but tensed up when he spoke. "what happened? why were you crying?" it remined me of the reason, not only did jay cheat on me but he cheated on me with sunhee. taehyungs girlfriend. I didn't know how to tell him without hurting him too. I couldn't meet his eyes and he seemed to notice. "I know it was that prick, tell me what'd he do?" he asked voice stern. I still didn't answer him to afraid to hear his reaction.

I still care for him and don't want him to be hurt but how can I tell him? "n-not here" I respond. my answer was short but he didn't push it over and walked with me to the dorms. as we were walking towards the dorm he held my hand. I looked down at our interlocked fingers and blushed a bit. I bit my lower lip to keep myself from frreaking out. so many things were going on today. and this is the best thing.

<nobody's pov>

the pair reached the dorm and jin ran to the first aid kit. telling taehyung to sit and not move, taehyung found this side of jin cute. he could only admire the said boy when he was treating his wounds. he cooed at him when he began treating his knuckles. each time he'd apologize, when taehyung would hiss out. it was adorable, how can tae not admire it? jin wrapped the boys knuckles with the bandage and moved to his face. "t-this will h-hurt, okay?" he asked softly cursing himself internally for stuttering.

taehyung nodded his head and let seokjin continue. as he grabbed the water to clean his cuts on his face, their faces got closer and closer. the thing passing through both of their minds were 'holy shit holy shit holy shi-'  seokjin applied the last bit of ointment onto the latter's face. when he turned back to face taehyung their faces were centimeters apart. this caused jin to jump and gasp. about to fall taehyung held him by the waist.

seokjin blushed furiously. 'how do I always get into this situation?!' he asked himself. when he re-balanced himself he mumbled a small thanks. taehyung once again cooed at this internally, but non-of the less gave a small you're welcome. the two remained silent, still recovering from the entire situation that previously occurred. before seokjin could leave and put the first aid kit away taehyung grabbed his wrist and asked the same question he asked previously. "what happened?" jin knew he had to tell him so he breathed in, trying to get himself ready to explain the entire thing...

~~~

about an hour and jin crying later, jin croaked out the last bit  of the situation. "s-so then I-I ran, b-but he fo-followed me and yo-you came in and s-started fi-fighting one a-another.." is all he could say before he began sobbing again. he was tired. tired of the rejection. tired of the yelling, tired of a lot of things. taehyung's jaw clenched. finding out that sunhee cheated on him with jay, who was cheating on jin with her was so fucking aggravating. but he could care-less at the moment. if it was only him getting cheated on he'd be cool but it was also jin.  he boy who's been through a hell of a lot. getting cheated on not once but now twice. he brought jins head to his chest. tears filled his shirt but he didn't care. not when jin was crying. not when the person he cared for most was crying,,,

not when the love of his life was crying...

as jin calmed down he listened to the soothing beat of taehyungs heart. this feeling and position reminded him of when they both were in relationship, when either one of them were upset they'd rest on each others chest and listen to their hearts. saying "just let the heart talk, it knows what its doing." taehyung gave light strokes onto jins hair. both breathing calm, atmosphere quiet and blissful. nothing can bother them at this point. all they needed was each other and they'd be okay. taehyung could give fucks about sunhee and jays relationship, all he cared for right now was the beauty resting in his arms. 

"healing is something that can help us. healing is something you and I need. for the both of us."

~bar in seoul~

one sujo bottle after the next. jay layed his head on the table. cursing silently at himself. regret filled his system. so the only way to get rid of it was to drown it out with alcohol. the bar tender was concerned for the guy but had to do his job and left jay be. he grabbed another shot and chugged it down. feeling the burning liquid going down his throat. he was drinking it as if it were some kind of water

he chugged more and more bottles, but that feeling never went away. he had to stop when his body couldn't take in anymore. bile growing at the back of his throat and he rushed to the bathroom. once he made it to the toilet he released on the contents he tried to keep in. the burning feeling on his throat intensified . he not only smelled of alcohol but now vomit. he wiped his mouth and flushed the toilet.

heading to the sink he washed his face. staring at the (now) scars on his face. his reflection triggered something in him. it remined him of the current events that displayed today. he was so angry , making a fool out of himself. first falling for the boy he wanted to use, next losing a fight, and third drinking it out. staring more into the mirror his vision blurred. and he started seeing less and less colors. the only coloring showing was red a bright and annoying red. he wanted to get rid of it.

he tapped, more like hit his head but the color remained. he tried rubbing his face, nothing in fact all that happened was the red intensifying  in color, if that was even possible. the only and last option he resorted to was leaving him more injured then he was before.

CRACK

he lifted his head and saw the shattered mirror in front of him. he chuckled lowly. that chuckle turned louder and more violent. this laugh wasn't a laugh but a shredded scream. the red fading from his vision. he sighed a breath of relief until looking down and seeing his newly bloody hands. he stared at them and rubbed his face. some blood smearing on it. but he didn't care not one bit. he washed the blood off his hands and then his face .

"kim seokjin, you will be mine and mine only!"

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a/n early update cuz why not? hope you liked it <3<3<3 still going to update on wednesday so stay tuned for that! and also new story? (#^.^#)