bless me achoo ↺ lee haechan

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[ present ]

i looked down my phone as it vibrated before crossing over the street.

i just got out of the convenience store to buy some needs and now i'm heading way back home.

until, "achoo!" i sneezed in the middle of the road.

and there, he appeared and pulled me back from the road.

and i just realized that i was in a great danger. car horns was heard and the shouting people, they were looking at the truck who was just about to hit me and some are looking at me with worry.

i wasn't.. in my senses before. and i felt guilty about it, cause instead the truck hit me, it hit a car, who knows if there's someone like a whole family in there?

i looked around and dropped my sight at the one who pulled me, he was also looking worryingly at me.

"s-sorry." i cried and then got welcomed by a hug from him.

"it's okay, don't be sorry, it's that goddamn truck driver's fault, hmm?" he caressed my back.

i don't know but.. i always felt so guilty about things, i didn't know when did this started but.. it always felt like something like this happened before and i am the one who caused it.

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"why can't i stop you from crying? i told you it wasn't your fault. besides it's only a guy who was in the car and he isn't hurt at all, nobody's hurt, hyurin, okay?" he once again embraced me.

we were sitting at a sofa, in front of each other.

"i don't know haechan, it's.. it's just so weird that i always feels like this like i've done something wrong to cause such thing but i don't even know what it is!"

i just cried and cried it all.

why am i like this?

why is it like this?

"please don't doze off to sleep, i still don't want to disappear, i'll stay by your side all day- or night, until you feel okay." he then pulled out and held my shoulders.

why is he acting like this all of a sudden? last thing i knew he was all a bitch and now he... he just gives me more reason to l-love him.

"i'm always here, by your side, i will always be, just to make sure you are safe, that you are fine, and smiling." he smiled and wiped my tears by his thumbs.

those words...

why are they so familiar?

just to make sure you are safe...

he made a promise.

who? who made that promise?

"now stop crying, you look so ugly like a smoked gorilla."

i glared once at him and slapped his chest hard.

"see? you're back at yourself, keep that annoyed face all along and-"

i didn't know if what i did is right but.. i couldn't stop it, was it all right?

i just.. kissed him. i made  it, for once.

but it didn't lasted for so long, i pulled after a quick peck and looked down. did i looked so pathetic?

i kissed him with knowing the fact that he isn't real, he's just a ghost or something what he calls himself, and we both know that we hate each other, why did i ended up by doing that?

"sorry, i didn't meant to do that, i mean, i was also surprised i did it and-"

"look here." he cut me by saying that.

i looked up him as what i was told, "huh?"

"look at me, i told you don't be sorry for all things, remember?" he says.

"but-"

and by that, a pair of lips touched mine. it was him, same lips, but not the exact feeling, it was.. longer. and it felt.. familiar.

everything he is doing is familiar, why is it? what is he to me?

"the taste of your lips sucks." he acted like he was puking.

i chuckled and sat straight with my back, "since when did you learn how to kiss huh?"

"uhm.. last week, when you sneezed while watching a drama on the tv, and they were doing it, you know me, i'm a fast learner so i got it right away." he giggled.

"ah anyways, what is the reason why two people kiss?"

and i physically face palmed after that stupid question.