bless me achoo ↺ lee haechan

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and then i tripped.

i was still running to nowhere. and now i'm on the ground. my barefoot hurts.

where am i? did i remembered what happened back then while running? yes, it was the what happened way back then.

i stood up and then after a while i realize where does my feet is taking me. then later on i realized where on earth i am going. it was very familiar. it's where donghyuck and i used to go back then.

where haechan brought me after out "date" the few weeks ago. i then run up to the stairs that will lead me to that place and then i saw... me?

it was what i saw in my mind before i tripped earlier, it was me, standing on that railing. am i.. trying to jump from there?

"no!" i tried to stop and run to her, i mean me, but it was too late.

"what the hell?" i told myself and run my fingers through my hair. did i die there?

"she's so stupid isn't she?" i jolted hearing haechan's voice, he is now beside me.

before i could even say something, he talked again, "you just recovered from the accident yet you jumped because of me, see how stupid you are and i even had to go back down here just to save your life- i mean bring you back to life."

what does he mean go back down here?

"t-that's why you're here?" i asked.

"after that, i've been watching you since that happened. but i didn't knew who you are, since then." he said, his voice is so calm and i couldn't even get mad at him right now.

"hey, hyurin. i really got a big feeling that i was the boy from the pictures we saw, that i was lee donghyuck. so, i wished to have my memory back but guess what.." he's smiling, looking straight into my eyes.

"a-are you going back to?" i asked him, hopes are up that he will say no and will stay with me until i die, too.

then he looked down, "yes, that's definitely.. right. that's how things should be. when you finally accomplished your purpose, it's a goodbye, then you'll start all over again."

"w-what do you mean?" i was all confused and didn't knew where would this end up.

"it's a goodbye for me." he then looked back up to me with the same smile crept in his face.

"no you're not going anywhere right? you're staying with me right?" tears again started to fall down but then, i saw him open both his arms widely, "w-what?" i asked.

"it's our last, hug me... kiss me like you'll miss me." (aight deadpool hshshsh) he gestured me to go as he chuckled, "come on, such a dummy."

i just laughed as well, still tearing and ran to him, hugging him the tightest. i am glad that i could touch him and feel him now.

i hate it, that this would be the last, why does it have to end this way?

"don't jump from here nor do such thing ever again, okay?" he let go of me and held me on my shoulders, "i'll always be right here, remember that, i'll always be by your side. you might not see me tho, but i'm there," and then he pointed on my chest, "forever."

is this really the end? it this a farewell? why? i'm happy and sad at the same time and definitely forgot that i was mad because he haven't showed up for over three days.

"i wish i had a chance and be able to be your boyfriend." he said with a pout.

i chuckled saying, "boyfriend or not, i still belong to you, and only you. i am yours since then, donghyuck."

we may not have a relationship like such but still, we're lovers.

"i prefer haechan." he smiles widely, resting his forehead on mine, looking directly onto my eyes, "yoon hyurin, i love you."

"why are you so cheesy right now, it's like you're a different person i knew." i smiled but every now and then my tears won't stop falling.

"just tell me that you love me too." he pouted once again.

"fine, i love you a million times, lee donghyuck, or haechan." i smiled but my eyes are still on sorrow.

"now kiss me, won't you?" he leaned on me closer, our nose touching from each other's.

and then i smacked my lips onto his', leaning even closer, sharing a soft kiss for i don't know when would end but i wish to never end. as our bodies pressed against each other, i promised my self to not forget, ever again.

he stopped and took a step back, he was smiling, "i'll keep my promise, our promise. i love you, goodbye."

i shook my head, "no, no don't go," i hugged him very tight and buried my face on his chest, "don't leave me please- no!" i cried out loud as saw him disappeared between my arms.

and i fell down to my knees, cried and cried under the same moon.

"i'll always be right here, remember that."

my head suddenly felt a sting and,

and...

why am i here?

why am i crying?

what am i exactly doing out here?

it's like, i had a dream and woke up, not remembering anything from it.

i stood up but then saw a bracelet just in front of my feet so i picked it up. it's somewhat familiar. it has a pendant, a sun. and seems like someone who's really dear to me owns it cause it matches perfectly to my moon necklace.

but i can't remember anything. nor anyone.

𝓮𝓷𝓭.