bless me achoo ↺ lee haechan

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i sat up, not feeling very well, i don't want to go to school and i feel like something wrong is gonna happen if i do. nothing's bad if i'd skip a day right?

and i laid my back again on the bed, thinking of what could be wrong with me.

"haechan? could you show up? i feel a bit lonely. why is this happening? you haven't showed up the other day and yesterday in a row and it's making me just.."

i bursted into tears, why would i end up being like this? crying, sobbing, over ghost boyfriend.

"fuck, why won't you just show up?!"

nothing's gonna happen, right here, right now.

"hyurin-ah? it's late for school, is there something wrong?" i heard my mom spoke outside my room.

"i don't feel well mom but i'm just fine! i think i just need more sleep!" i shouted.

"okay honey! just call me if something happens, love you."

"love you too mom!" and then i heard her walk walk downstairs.

just what is wrong?

with loads of heavy thoughts, i didn't realized i dozed off to sleep.

until..

"achoo!" i woke up as i sneezed.

wait, did i just sneezed? then where is he?

"haechan?" i called, but no one answered.

then i knew, i slept for that long because it's already dark outside. i sat up, seeing an untouched food and medicine on the bedside table.

i brought it downstairs to eat it on the dining so mom could see me but she isn't around, it was too quiet.

and i'm not used to this.

where's that boy who tags along with me around the house whenever i'm the only one in here.

all of a sudden i received a message from my mom saying that there's an emergency from work and she has to work overtime. it's always that way.

after eating i stood up only to feel quite dizzy as if i've lost my energy or such but for what kind of reason? i got enough of sleep and i ate very well so what's this i am feeling right now?

i got myself back to bed so i could rest but as i closed my eyes, a picture flashed my memory. and it wasn't so clear for me to understand what was that.

i sat back up, trying to figure out what it is but my eyes widened as i saw haechan, the same haechan i've been missing, standing in front of my bed.

i was about to run towards him but the same thing appeared in my mind again that made my head ache. it was my father driving a car, i was seating along with haechan on the back.

and what was that? there was the sound of loud horns but everything's not clear for me.

"yoon hyurin." he called and i continued my way to him but before i could even hold him, he walked off, walked out my room.

i followed him but as i got out my room he was nowhere to found anymore. i searched for him in every corner of the house but i couldn't find him. i'm hopeless.

i started to fall down, crying, shouting,"where are you? if you don't need me anymore could you just tell me what's happening? why are you like that?"

hopeless, and senseless.

"hyurin, hey, hyurin-ah."

it was voice in my head. a voice of a familiar kid.

"i'm here now, it's nothing to worry about."

and he smiled preciously. it was him, the guy i was with, on the picture i saw.

"donghyuck?" and it was me, in an age as him, "donghyuck!" then, we shared a hug.

i was a crying little kid, always crying for stupid things, and he'd show up no matter what, comforting me, as if my life's more precious than his'.

"i promise to always be right here, by your side."

and i felt that. that he's always right here. but where is he now?

"hyurin."

i looked up as i heard his voice again.

"d-donghyuck?" he was right in front of me, looking down on me with a smile.

"i'm here." he lend out his hand for me.

"i-i knew you've always been." i smiled, but tears won't stop. i was about to get to him but my hand, i couldn't touch him!

my eyes widened but he's still smiling at me. why is this..? what's going on?

i stood up on my own, looking at him, then down my hands. "w-why?!" i shouted and ran to hug him but my body.. our bodies passed...

my body passed through him.

why can't i touch him? why?? i used to touch him, i used to feel him, i used to be with him! then why is this.. happening right now?

i looked back but he was gone, again.

"come with me." i heard him speak, right behind my ear.

"t-to where??" i asked but couldn't get any answers.

so i ran, out of the building, letting my body take me wherever it could. i felt like running for nothing, where am i going? i'm getting tired, and tired. hearing voices from the past. my head is aching so much. my sight is too blurry. but i couldn't stop.

"donghyuck?! donghyuck!!"