Wants vs Needs H.S

Nineteen

Lucy and I made eye contact, she didn't know? She had to of known?

I shook my head and stormed out her room, she hid that from me? She knows about everything with him, she even told me to speak to him! Little bitch, I can't even trust my own sister, great.

"Hannah wait, I didn't know I promise, she said her friend was round I assumed it was a girl! She didn't tell me who or show me their face, how was I meant to know!

Listen, I'd tell you, you know I would your my baby sister even if there's less than a year gap between us" She teased, she's right she would tell me, because of how close our ages are, we tell each other everything. Well almost everything.

I filled her in on everything from what Mia said to how she was acting in the shop.

"Han, you like him, don't you?" she asked concern in her eyes.

"No, I don't he's been back 5 minutes I just don't want him flinging his relationship in front of me after telling me he's back for me, only me" I bite my nails, tomorrow I will put that bikini on have some alcohol with my best mates and show him I don't care, end of.

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Tuesday, the day of the beach.

Nobody's actually said that it's a party, I'm just assuming as a teenager hungry for change and to rebel on a school night.

"Taking your going tonight after seeing you with your bikini on yesterday" Harry whispered to me in English, the memory making me cringe.

"I am indeed, what's even happening there?" I asked sure not to ask if he was going because in his eyes 'I don't care' right?

"Oi Liam, what's happening tonight at the beach Hannah's wondering?" Harry asked shouted to Liam across the room.

"Well its apparently Zayn's birthday, you know the guy in the year above?
Well he's celebrating on the beach bringing speakers and a BBQ, but our groups decided it's just an excuse to smoke weed on the cliff and jump off high, imagine how trippy" Liam laughs thinking how clever this idea is, me and Harry burst out laughing thinking how stupid they are, what if they forget how to swim?

Calm down h its weed not dementia.

"Are you going tonight Haz? I mean Harry" I ask, can't seem too friendly only his best mates call him Haz.

"Do you want me to?" he leans his elbow on the desk, so he can face me.

"I don't really care to be honest, I was just wondering seeming as the whole groups going" I reply not giving into his trap of wanting me to confess I want him there.

He shook his head, "Stop pushing me away when I know that's not what you want"

I ignore him biting my tongue and getting on with my work.

Just before I leave lesson, I see Leah waiting by the door for him, he leaves the classroom a grin appearing on his face as soon as he sees her leaning in for a hug, prick.

"oh, and Harry" I ask getting both of their attention

"You can't push someone away who was never close in the first place" I turn around and walk to my locker holding back the urge to slap him and cry, I don't want him, but I shouldn't have their relationship rubbed in my face.

"They aren't together babe" Millie says shutting my locker to gain my attention.

"He'll speak to you tonight and you'll be fine, don't worry about it, after math come to mine and we will get ready for the beach together" Millie smiles giving me a quick hug before leaving.
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