By Any Means

Chapter 4

After everything Rahmir's stupid ass told me I needed to clear my head. "Ci Ci baby! Wanna go to the park with mommy?" I asked my baby girl. "yes mommy! Auntie Asia too?" She questioned but I honestly didn't have an answer for her. I simply replied with a slight shrug which caused her to giggle. I guess I can send her a text or whatever.

About an hour later we were headed to the park. When we got there I spotted Asia's car. I parked beside her and as soon as I opened Ciara's door she flew to Asia's car, the love they have for eachother is undeniable. Since Asia and I haven't really spoke since our little disagreement I stood off to the side waiting for them to finish their moment.

"Even though I don't really like you right now, you don't have to stand there by yourself looking like you lost your best friend" she stated breaking me out of my inner thoughts. This describes our friendship or shall I say sisterhood, we argue often but we always bounce back like nothing happened.

Ci Ci wanted to play in the sandbox so this was the perfect opportunity to discuss things with Asia. After I explained the situation Rahmir has gotten us into with his gambling she understood that at the end of the day I have to do what I have to do. However, Asia made it clear that she believes if I don't put a stop to robbing and drugging these men it'll all catch up to me one day.

"I'm only telling you this because I love you and I would do anything I possibly can so you and my goddaughter are living comfortably. You have a little girl that's looking up to you... and what about your little sister? You wouldn't want them out here doing nothing like this. You do plan on leaving all of this bullshit behind you one day right? I hope Rahmir's trifling ass is included." She mumbled the last part as if I didn't hear her. 

"Definitely, I just need some time to get things straightened out and some more money". Asia started laughing, I mean this girl was slapping her leg and everything "wheeeeew girl thank gawd you stashed some money in my house. He is so stupid how the hell he bet money that he doesn't even have." She may have actually found my situation funny but I'm so thankful I stashed money from Rah in a few places. Aside from Asia's place I have money in accounts for me and Ciara, and a safe that's loaded with cash inside of my dad's house. Asia and my dad are the only two with full access to the accounts and the money I have stashed so, god forbid if I ever got caught they'll have enough money to take care of my daughter and I. I'm too pretty for jail so hopefully I won't have to worry about becoming nobody's bitch.

The conversation I had with Asia left me in deep thought the entire car ride back home, to my dad's house. I came to the realization that Rahmir didn't really care about our relationship nor our little family. If Rah really cared about us he wouldn't be sending me to all these different men, he could've easily gotten a "real" job to provide for us, he wouldn't be gambling damn near everyday. I want my daughter and little sister Jayda to become successful but in order to do so I must lead by example. Jayda is fourteen and that's a crucial age, I need to prove to her that she has the ability to become whatever her little heart desires. Since there aren't many positive role models in her life I want to become that role model for her.

I need to talk to Rah,I'm only doing four more licks before I give up this lifestyle. Four more jobs will be more than enough to pay off his debt and add to the money I already have stashed. The old Briyana would be reconsidering my decision to bring my double life to a halt just to somehow please Rah, but the new me? I'm only concerned about bettering myself and guiding my babies Jay and Ci Ci in the right direction. My stomach is in knots just thinking about it but he's my boyfriend, he'll understand right?

I'm gonna prepare for the worst, but still pray for the best, I thought to myself. Rah and I had been together six years, and living this lifestyle for about two. What started as a little side hustle for extra cash became a full time job for the both of us. As much as I hated to admit it, Asia was right. As a child I pictured my life totally different. I had dreams of becoming a gynecologist with my own hair salon as a second income, getting married as soon as my career took off, buying a huge house with a white picket fence, four kids, and two dogs, the American Dream. You can have all these dreams, then life will happen, and all those plans would be down the drain. What I have to do is pray my baby girl doesn't follow in my footsteps, that she's enrolled in the best schools, and will chase her dreams no matter what.

Asia begged for Ciara to stay the night with her, I agreed to it. I mean, I was gonna ask her to babysit anyway while I went to work. I gave the two a kiss on the cheek, hopped in my car, and rushed home. Asia taking Ci Ci was perfect, I could go home, take a shower, take a nap, and get ready for the long night ahead of me.

Later, I arrived at Rahmir's House after leaving my trick. It's 3am, I know that nigga is on his third dream by now.
*knocks on door* No answer.
*knock knock knock* still no answer.
"What the fuck is the fool doing?"
I decided to go around the back to the side door where his room was. I pulled out my pocket knife so I can get the door open.

I swung the door open, and there he was...

What do you guys think Rahmir is up to?

How will he feel about Briy finally leaving their "business"?

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