By Any Means

Chapter 8

I got out of my bed to see who was ringing the doorbell at my dad's house since everybody that lives here has a key and I wasn't expecting company. I was shocked to see Jayda when I looked through the peephole.

"What's this the third time you lost your keys in like a month?" I asked her with a slight eye roll.

"Sis don't even start they in here somewhere. You look worn out, you haven't been yourself in a while. Everything okay?" My heart fell because I didn't think she had noticed. I put on makeup to shield her from all the bruises on my body and avoid having this conversation.

By the end of our much needed discussion we were both crying. My sister was hurt because she felt like I should have told her. But, this situation is so embarrassing I honestly wanted to keep it from everyone even Asia. Jayda and I swore to never allow ourselves to be in an abusive relationship or a relationship that did not have any benefits. A relationship should allow both parties to grow mentally, physically, emotionally and even financially. But, I know Jayda would never allow anyone to mistreat her in anyway my sister has the hands of a grown ass man and doesn't mind cursing anyone out.

"Karma is a bitch sis don't even worry about it he'll get his." After her words we hugged each other and I went right back to our room so I could get some sleep but it was too late, I would be up all night if I take a nap at 7pm. I thought I was about have a good nap since I just finished crying my eyes out. Ever got a beating for acting up and your momma made you take a nap afterwards? Wheew chile that's the best sleep I didn't wake up until dinner time feeling like a brand new kid.

The Next Day

Today consisted of a girls day just me, mom, my baby, and my little sister. I treated everyone to breakfast before we got pampered at a local spa. Getting our hair, nails, and toes done felt like an all day process so we went to eat lunch right after.

I decided to have a special day with all of us just to remind myself there's no greater love. Of course I loved Asia and my dad too but my dad was a workaholic. Dad worked at least six days every single week for at least 10 hours. Now my good sis Asia? My girl said she was spending today with her "friend". Asia definitely was giving a lot of attention to this friend.. It was a boyfriend but she was the type to make sure he would be worth her time and worthy of meeting the people closest to her. Hopefully she'll be introducing us to him soon so, I could see who snatched my best friend from by my side. Either way I couldn't be more excited maybe I'll finally get the godson I've been waiting for. At least one of us are having a good relationship anyways.

After walking around the mall for 4 hours I was exhausted but everyone was so happy. Mom got a whole bunch of new shoes and purses she most likely will never wear. I love her so much even though she aggravates my soul by buying purses and shoes that ends up collecting dust in her closet. Jayda got a few outfits and like 4 pairs of sneakers, she is obsessed with sneakers. I guess it's safe to say like mother like daughter. My Ci Ci skipped through the mall with her brand new american doll, the only thing that had her attention since I swiped my card for it.

We finally got back to my mom's house after our girl's day. I decided to FaceTime Asia while my mom cooked dinner because we needed to fill each other in on our day.

Asia answered my FaceTime call wit a look that said it all before she screamed "Bitchhhhhh". Everybody knows that's the phrase said right before some tea is about to be spilled.

"Ant ant we haven't been around each other all day and you about to tell me some foolishness. What you do now Asia?"

"Nah. It's not good tea sis this without the lemon and sugar Briy I don't think you gonna like what I have to say. But me being me I'm gonna tell you anyway." She announced while trying to contain her laugh.

"At this point I'm almost 100% sure I can handle whatever you about to say. Now get to the point."

She sucked her teeth then finally started telling me about her day. "Okay so I'm sitting down at one of my favorite restaurant enjoying my food right. I swear I was minding my business and enjoying my man.... I mean my friend's company. You still with me?" She paused to see me looking at her with my mouth wide open before I frowned at her.

"Nope run that back. You got a man and aint tell me?"

"Briyana that's not the point. We gonna talk about that later." She said laughing but I didn't get the joke. I gave her the okay to continue hoping she was getting to the point soon so, I could question her about her new man.

"Anywho I looked behind him guess who I see? Imani. Then I see she walking, giggling, and holding hands with some boy. I looked up to see who boyfriend she stole now. I look up and girl, I had to squint to make sure my eyes wasn't deceiving me. This man was tall, facial hair, nice complexion, he had a little bit of muscle on him too. Maybe because he fresh out of jail." After she said that she burst into a fit of laughter. I swear my best friend is crazy. But, I was trying to figure out who the mystery guy was with Imani, that hoe so trifling.

"Who Imani trifling ass with now?" I questioned.

"That girl with this dirty, non-working, long face, ignor-" she listed before I started rolling over in my bed laughing at her stupidity. After my laughing stopped I asked her how she knew he was all of those things she was saying about him.

"Oh I know. Wanna know how I know? Girl it was your dusty ass baby father, he such a clown yo on everything." She blew out a breath while rolling her eyes which was probably her millionth time doing so today. I was quiet as a church mouse after she told me that.

Do I care? Should I care? Wait didn't we just break up or whatever you wanna call it, how could he move on so quickly?

"You know what I don't even care they deserve each other. Tweedledee and Tweedledum won't last long. Look how he did me she thinks she's different? What's higher than number one?" I said calmly as I smirked and flipped my hair.

"Yasss I guess you really over him, bout time. Alexa play city girls act up." She screamed then before I knew it we were in the camera twerking to our favorite song at the moment.

"I'll call you back. I'm about to go have that conversation with my mom I was telling you about."

"Oouu good luck with that. I love you." She said with a small pout. I told her I loved her too before ending the call.

I've been dreading this talk with my mom for days well years but, its eating me alive. I need to get answers now.

Am I ready for this conversation? This could allow me to fix all the issues I have within myself. The feeling of never being good enough for anyone. Why have I been harmed by the people closest to me. Why has my mom tried to kill me and we just overlooked it like everything was okay? Will I ever be enough?