Puberty ~ Jack Gilinsky

Im sorry :(

Hey guys.. it's been a while 🙃 I've had so much going on... for starters, everything was going freaking great. I hung out with the guy I've been talking to since March twice, and then... he told me he wanted me to be his super badly. Well, then he got distant. He was hanging out with other girls. So yeah, that pissed me off. I confronted him on Halloween and he tried to flip the situation on me. I told him I was Fr done with him and at the time I didn't know if I meant it or not. I was debating texting him to talk things out bc we had said we loved eachother and we meant a lot to the other person.. and then this dumb girl who HE called a sloppy hoe posted a picture of him in her bed. So yeah, there's no way in hell I want to hear from him ever again.

It's hard tho, bc I miss him. Not this new him. The old him. The one that called me baby and told me good morning and goodnight and tried to make me feel better. The one that told me I was his and only his. The one that held me like I was the only girl he ever met 😂. Love is bullshit guys. It fucking hurts when it doesn't work out and I really want to punch him. I would be so happy if he begged me to take him back, but no matter how much I love him or care for him, he lost his chance with me the second he ran to that hoe.

Soooooo why does this have anything to do with this book?? Well, he distracted me from my crush on Jack Gilinsky, made me forget about him. He made me realize that a fantasy about love is nothing when the real thing exists. I began this book before we even became friends, and ironically, his name is Dominick. That's also one of Jaide's love interests. Going back and reading some of this really hurts bc it reminds me of him... so I'm sorry to let you guys down but I don't think I'll be writing any more.

I'm so monotone with everything and everyone in life right now. I'm hurting but I'm also numb. I have tons of guys willing to treat me right and I don't want any of them, but I don't want him back either.

Honestly fuck life. It can kiss my ass. Fuck love, fuck pain, fuck fake people.

Sorry I'm ranting 🤦🏽‍♀️😂 okay okay I love you guys all so much thank you for enjoying my writing 🤧💞

Maybe sometime in the future I'll write another book, about made up characters or something 🤷🏽‍♀️ or maybe even a life story who knows. 😂

Anywayyyyyy, I'm hurting a lot right now so that's why I haven't been writing.. I hope you guys understand!! Thank you for everything again 💗