Euphoria // Grunge One-Shots

Rehab - Chris Cornell

"So you never realised until now?" Kane, my best friend, who also happens to be my brother, asks me.

I shake my head, "I never did. The thought never even occurred to me, until now."

"Do you think he knows?" he asks.

I shake my head again.

"Does he feel the same?" he goes on.

I look up with a worried expression, something else I never though about before. "I don't know." I whisper.

"Well, this is just great." Kane chuckles, not really knowing what else to do. I've never really talked to him about my love-life. I mean, there are boundaries after all.

Kane and I just sit there for a while. Him thinking about god knows what and me thinking about how I can continue my life without messing things up with Chris.

Chris and I have been friends forever. It all started even before Soundgarden. It's been a while since Soundgarden split, three years have passed already.

"Is he still in rehab?" Kane suddenly breaks the silence.

I shake my head once again. "He's been out for a couple of months now." I smile, I'm so proud of him for making it all the way to being completely clean now.

During his time in rehab we got closest. I was one of the few who actually came to visit him and he always let me know how much he appreciated it.

We got along better and better and now we're inseparable. That was, until I realised how deeply I've fallen for him. I ditched him tonight to see and talk to my brother in the need of advice.

We didn't have big plans for tonight though. He would just come over to chill and probably watch a movie. But I told him my brother asked me to come over and said it was urgent. He seemed to buy it, even though my acting skills are worse than Dick van Dyke's British accent.

"Why don't you just tell him?" Kane brings me back to planet earth.

I laugh at him,

"What?" he gives me a weird look.

"You're serious?" I suddenly ask with a serious face and he nods.

The though of telling Chris makes me crawl into a corner already. I can't tell him, what if I mess up our friendship? What if he thinks I'm a fool? What if, what if..

"You'll never know if you don't drop at least a small hint." Kane says, noticing my worried expression.

I know he's right, but I'm just too scared. Chris is not known for having an interest in girls like me. The girls he likes are usually pretty tanned and they always have brown hair. That's exactly the opposite of what I look like: I've got a pale skin and blonde hair.

Besides that he probably isn't in the mood for a relationship. He told me, just weeks ago, that he was happy to be single.

That thought scares me ever more.

Kane tells me he needs to go 'cause he needs to pick up his son from school. I tell him it's alright and that I will talk to Chris. He's right, I need to face it sooner or later.

The next day I call Chris the ask if he's free.

"Yeah, want me to pick you up? We can buy some food and have a picnic in the park."

I tell him it sounds like a great idea and before I know it Chris is knocking on my door.

"Hey you." he says with his usual smile.