Save Him

13.

Taelynn.

Opening my eyes; I let them adjust to the room and noticed all of my family; and friends around. Confused was an understatement at the moment; I could clearly see that I was in a hospital, and for what? Everyone was so into talking amongst themselves no one even noticed me being awake. My throat was dry and my head hurt; what the hell happened?

I cleared my throat as best as I could and Quincy was the one that heard me; he looked at me for a minute and then wiped his eyes as if he didn't want me to see him cry. Walking up to me; he moved my hair out of my face and pecked my lips twice; in a room full of my uncles and dad? He was bold but I didn't care.

"Imma let that slide; like I wasn't right here.." I heard my dad's voice and he kissed my forehead. Everyone hurried and crowded around me with hugs and kisses. "Water" I strained out and Quincy quickly placed some with a straw to my lips, I smiled before taking a sip.

"What happened?" I looked around and eveyone got quiet, that made me nervous. "Anybody?" I looked at my mom and she looked pale in the face; and spaced out. "Quincy?" I looked at him and he looked at me and cleared his throat.

"Can y'all give us a moment?" My dad asked and my family began to walk out but I grabbed Q's hand for him to stay with me, I was scared and confused to as why everyone was crying or not telling me why I was here. "You don't remember why you're here?" My mom asked me with tears streaming down her face; and seeing her cry made me want to cry. We had that connection; if I seen one of my parents hurt it also hurt me.

"You had a miscarriage" I froze as I stared at her; like she was speaking a foreign language.

"What?" I asked and felt my chest tighten. "A what?" I shook my head to erase the images of Kevin out of my head. As if raping me wasn't enough; he got me pregnant and I also lost a child behind this. I felt my chest heave up and down as I ripped the needles and everything out of my arms and I lost it.

I don't know what came over me but everything that happened to me two months ago came back, and came back hard. The images, his smell, his touch, all the things he'd said to me were clouding my vision and I couldn't shake the feeling how I thought I could.

"Calm down" I heard my dad's voice right before I slammed the monitor through the glass window and began to destroy everything in sight. I was now angry about the situation and I wanted Kevin dead! He did this shit to me, and he needed to pay for it. "I WANT HIM DEAD" I punched the wall repeatedly until my knuckles cracked. My dad tried to grab me and I punched him too; not on purpose but nobody needed to touch me right now. "Just leave me alone" I sighed and slid down the wall and buried my head into my hands and started to scream and cry; that's all I could do.

"T your hand.." Quincy grabbed my hand an I winced in pain. "I think you broke it" he mumbled and tried to help me up but him touching me sent my mind back to that night and I kicked him in the face. He held his nose and looked at me blankly for a second; "Don't touch me" I started to cry and everyone just let me get it all out of my system.

"I- I need help" I shook my head and cried.

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2 weeks later.

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Hearing the door open I looked up and saw Quincy walk in with Zhyre from our honors class, looking at me he continued to the kitchen with her following behind him. I laughed to myself a little; and decided not to be petty. They were working on a assignment together; but she'd been liking him as long as I had. So I know she was too hype; to be in his presence.

After my break down two weeks ago; and me breaking Quincy's nose he distanced himself from me. We hadn't really said much to each-other; he was mad at me and I was hurt. But, my dad was even kind of upset that I hit him but I'm his baby he got over it.

Deciding on going to therapy; it had worked a little. I've only had two sessions, but I felt more comfortable now and I also know now that it wasn't my fault so I didn't blame myself anymore and I was starting back to get comfortable with myself; gaining my confidence back. I was happy.

It's like when I started Quincy stopped. His dad had really threw him off with the news he had dropped on him; and it's like Q gave back up and went back to his old ways of feeling like he's worthless.

"Q shuttup; I am not turning red" I heard Zhyre voice and suddenly became hungry. Placing my laptop down; I walked into the kitchen and seen them sitting at the island and she was smiling, and laughing.

"He ain't even that funny" I was irritated by her at this point.

"What?" She responded and I turned on my heels; to see if she was talking to me.

"You heard me. What's so funny that he said? You akiki'ing like he a comedian... and I don't see a damn Kevin Hart in my house"

"Taelynn what's wrong with you? You being a little rude" Quincy spoke up and I laughed.

"Wasn't you the same nigga crying when Josiah was here? What's wrong with me?? Nigga what's wrong with you?" I was annoyed at the fact; he had the nerve to question me.

"Well.. I'mma just sit in the living room and finish my portion of the project." Zhyre took the laptop and walked away.

I was so pissed my chest heaved up and down; "You tripping; that's just my friend" He shrugged his shoulder and I chuckled. "You miss me?" He looked at me and smirked; and I turned my head away from him. He grabbed my face into his hands; and a strange feeling went through my body at the way he looked at me. It wasn't a feeling I felt when Kevin touched me; it was a good feeling.

"All you got to do is tell me you miss me" He whispered and kissed my lips, this wasn't our usual kiss, this kiss had my lady parts throbbing and I didn't know if that was good or bad. "Quincy" I moaned out and pushed him away from me; my skin felt like it was on fire and I had to remove myself and shake this new feeling.

"I'm sorry. I just- I missed you" I smiled and pecked his lips against and walked into the bathroom and pulled my panties down, and frowned at the sticky texture and decided to take a shower; and google what the hell just happened. I mean we had sex Ed; but they never went into great detail, so google was my Bestfriend.