Save Him

36.

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Quincy.

I sat staring at Taelynn who hadn't said not one world to me for today, after how I'd acted last-night. She massaged my leg, because it was now swollen and hurt like hell, all that adrenaline I had yesterday I didn't feel a thing. But this morning, I literally woke up with crocodile tears, and even though she was mad at me she babied me. Helped me wash up, fed me, and massaged my feet and legs.

I sighed and pulled her up to straddle my lap pecking her lips. "I'm sorry Taelynn, I should have listened to you and I'm sorry for always making jokes about you being slow, I didn't know it hurt your feelings" I sighed laying on her chest. "I know I haven't been the best boyfriend lately, but I'm just stressed out... I know I shouldn't take it out on you at all or anyone for that matter, my actions last night were unacceptable, but I don't regret beating his ass for what he did.. but I do apologize for scaring you" I told her the truth.

I was starting to act off of emotions and I hated it, but I wasn't about to let my girl get broke down again. He didn't have no business touching her inappropriately; especially if she told him not too. I blamed myself because if I hadn't put her out, and I listened to her it wouldn't of happened, and my head couldn't wrap around it. I snapped and lost it, all I could picture was how helpless she looked when I saw Kevin penetrating her, thats something that you never want to see. I know it fucked her up, but I saw that with my own two eyes; it fucked me up too.

"I just feel like we need a break.. some time apart or something.."

"Huh?" I asked her making her look my into the eyes, my heart started to beat extremely fast, I couldn't handle it if she was breaking up with me or leaving, I know I told her too but I didn't mean that shit. "Baby, you breaking up with me? Please..." I swallowed hearing my voice crack.

"I don't know, I shouldn't have to be scared of you. You look like if I hadn't left you alone last night you would of hit me..." She trailed off and I gently moved her off of me. "I just don't want you to become your da-"

"Wow" I cut her off and chuckled. "I would never hit you, even after you pushed on me lastnight, you scared? But you put your hands on me brining back old memories of him pushing me around, but you don't give a fuck about that.." I paused and didn't even care about the tears I let fall, I loved this girl but I wasn't going to force her to stay. "Don't ever compare me to him when you're the one that gets mad and always lay hands, I could of been knocked you out Taelynn but I would never because I'm not him. So what I beat up that boy, he was going to rape you and you know how I felt when I seen Kevin do that shit to you? Huh! I couldn't sleep just like you, but I was there for you! Here you go again running when I need you!! I lost Chrissy, my dad, I can't walk unless I'm mad, I have a mother out here somewhere, I have two kids to take care of and I'm only 18 years old. I have to get better before school starts, it's so much shit in my head.. excuse me for lashing out a dude who was going to take something from you" I yelled and wiped my tears angrily. "Just walk out when I need you, just go. But don't expect me to run the next time you need me; deal with all your shit by yourself and I'm glad you broke up with me, I'm tired of you too T"

I ignored her cries and pushed her off of me. "Just go" I told her and she sniffled steady apologizing but if she wanted to leave then she could go. I didn't need her, I always had myself and I was fine with that. I was done being there for everyone, and learn to take care of myself. If she wanted to walk out every-time something got tough then I didn't need her either.

Watching her body shake as she grabbed her things it took everything in me not to just stop her, I hated seeing her cry. It made my heart hurt, like I could literally feel it. My eyes never stopped watering or never left her as she walked around the room packing her things, every piece of clothing she put in the bag mad my heart ache.

As soon as she touched the door knob, despite my leg I got up and wrapped my arms around her from the back. As mad or heartless as I wanted to be I couldn't let her walk out. "Don't leave me, just be there for me. That's all I ask" I whispered to her and she dropped her bags to the floor turning and wrapping her hands around me hiccuping.

"I'm so sorry for putting my hands on you, that's so insensitive of me.. I'm here Q.. you just have to let me be! I swear I'm here baby. I don't want to break up, or be mad at you. I am afraid you'll hit me though, the look you had in your eyes scared me."

I made her look at me. "I promise you I'd never hit you, I'm not my dad. I've never even thought about hitting you no matter how mad you made me, you have to believe me.." I kissed her lips. "But, I have been pushing you away and I do need you here with me. I'm hurting and I think I do need to get back into therapy" I admitted.

The words I said about finding out my dad committed suicide worried me, It's like I no longer cared. I wasn't sure if I was going to tell Kaycee and Quadir, but I had to figure it out. I knew my heart was hurting but my mind wouldn't let me react, I was numb and that wasn't good at all, especially for me.

"Okay I trust you." She hugged me tighter, and randomly pushing me on the bed straddling me. Out of instinct my hands went to her waist, massaging her hips.

"This won't fix anything" I told her while rubbing up her back unsnapping her bra and pulling her shirt over her head.

"I know it won't fix us; but I'm sure we both need it. Well I do" She shrugged and lifted a little so I could slide her panties and the jogs she was wearing off. Hearing soft moans as I sucked on her nipples, I became hard instantly. "Mhmmm baby" She rocked back and forth on me. She then stood up and pulled my pants down, I watched her intensely climb back onto me lowering herself onto me.

"Fuck" I bit my lip when she got all of me to fit, and moved back and forth at a steady place.

"Ahh" She moaned when I grabbed a hand full of her pulling it while I sucked on each nipple. Her moans were music to my ears, and the more she called out for me, the more I wanted her. I placed both hands on her waist and flipped us over, not caring about the pain in my leg.

"You leaving me?" I asked her pulling out and slamming into her with each thrust her mouth was open, but no words came out. Nothing but her gripping the sheet and trying to run but I held her in place, and continued to fuck her rough. "I didn't hear you" I went harder and placed my hand around her neck, feeling her legs shake and moans become screams or pleasure.

"No... I'm.. not.. leaving you .. Im about too-" She moaned out and I kept pounding into her for five more minutes. She clenched her walls around me causing us both to release at the same time, her screaming my name and me moaning hers.

"I love you" I laid there not wanting to move, it felt better for my leg and I didn't want to pull out of her.

"I love you too.. we could talk about us when I wake up, and we're going to call your mom, also a therapist and identify Gerald, I'll be here for everything.. even telling Quadir and Kaycee" She yawned and I nodded my head not really paying attention before falling asleep.