The Kissing Booth A New Chapter.

74 FINALLY HAPPY

BPOV

Life has been hard for me since we lost mom I struggle every day with the vague memories of life before we lost her.  I hate that I can not remember her better, but I was too young to remember much of my life with her around.   Yeah I know I could ask Shellybellie or even my main man Lee or my idol Noah, but I see it in their eyes when she is brought up, or something happens that reminds them of her they all are still hurting.  Now don't get me started on dad and June they are both still putting the pieces back together.  I have heard them talking about how much they miss her and how proud she would be of us kids, but that is all I hear.  I know her and June's bestie song was Girls Just Wanna Have Fun by Cindy Lauper.  I know that her fave color was blue just like Elle's.  My life started getting better when Elle started dating Noah I was ecstatic because I was hoping that they would get married and he would be my brother.  I guess in many ways the two of them think of me as a brother hell they even call me little man and if anyone else tries they get upset saying it is their special nickname for me like my Shellybellie calls me Bradley bear.  

Speaking of my Shellybellie, she is everything to me, a big sister, a friend and even a mom sometimes, although lately, June has taken on the role of mother for me and the more I think about it I don't want Shellybellie to be my mom.  I wish she would understand I just need my big sister, not a mother.  I guess me not knowing about mom more is my fault since I never ask my family about her.  Anyway back to Noah and Shellybellie, they seemed so much in love I would smile whenever I saw them together.  I also felt confident that Noah would take care of my big sister and never hurt her.  Boy was I wrong.  I hated the fact he broke up with her and broke her heart.  I wanted to punch, kick, scratch and do anything else that would hurt him for how he hurt my Shelly.  When mom died we almost lost her she wouldn't come out of her room, she wouldn't eat Noah and Lee were beside themselves with what to do.  I finally went to talk to her even though the way she was acting scared me when I heard dad tell June and Mathew that he was going to have to send her away so she could get better.  I had just lost my mom I couldn't lose my Shellybellie too, so I ran upstairs and begged her to come back to me.  It worked she got up took a shower after asking Noah for her favorite food.  

So, when Noah broke up with her, I was scared that she was going to revert to the way she was after mom died.  Well, she almost did, but this time I didn't let it get that far and reminded her I needed her because if she left me too, all I would have left is dad.  This made me hate Noah even more because I realized my sister was broken and I didn't even know if she ever would come back.  Yeah, everyone thought that prick Lewis was going to put her back together, but I knew different.  I would see him try to convince her to change her look.  He would get her to wear dresses that were red even though she preferred blue, but his reason was seeing her in blue after finding out that Noah loved her in blue made him imagine Noah holding and kissing her.  She still would wear blue but only to family dinners.  Don't even get me started on the family dinners he would complain about how she was old enough to decide if she wanted to attend.  He wouldn't listen to her that they were important to her.  I couldn't tell my Shellybellie that I had heard him tell someone on the phone that it was hard getting her alone since Lee, dad or I were always around her and that the only time he was guaranteed alone time was on Sunday's.  The good thing was that he wasn't around much since he was away at school but I knew all he wanted to do was sleep with Shellybellie.  I knew because he was always trying to get her to go to her room and close the door.  Don't even get me started when he found out that Shellybellie would go into her or Lee's room and close the door.

Anyway, when Shellybellie finally dumped the jackass, I was so happy and started praying her and Noah would get back together.  I know I said I hated him, but I heard our parents talking and found out that Noah was blackmailed into pretending to be this girls boyfriend and that is why he broke up with Shellybellie.  Well, I had heard another phone call he made where they had him on speaker, and I could hear him crying about how much it hurt him to see her with Lewis.  How he hated thinking about Elle and Lewis being together him kissing her and hugging her he didn't like the idea of any guy being with the woman he loved.   The best day was when he announced that Lewis had shown his true colors and Shellybellie found out he just wanted her for sex.