The Kissing Booth A New Chapter.

92 JOURNAL

"Uhm, the man that was with Lewis.  Well, Lewis's father or I should say stepfather."  "Wait how do you know about him."  "Oh, mom told me about him."  "Ok, so you knew that you had an uncle."  "Well not till I came back from my out of body experience."  "Wow, I guess you really did find out a lot on your little side trip back to us."  "Yep, is he around."  "He was here earlier he wasn't planning on telling you actually your dad wanted to get to know him before you met him.  I guess now we are going to have to let him know that Mary told you about him when you were with her."  June looked around and said "well I will go and let you two have some couple time.  OH, and Elle I am sorry about Lewis."  "I am not happy he was killed along with Donny, but at least he can not hurt anyone again."  "Ok well, you two behave the Doctor said Elle might be allowed to go home tomorrow.  He wants to make sure you have no mental deficits since you were out for a week."  "Ok see you later June."  "Bye, mom."  "bye kids love you."  "love you too June."  "Love you too mom."  

After June left Noah took a deep breath and handed me the journal.  "This is yours, and I hope it does bring us closer together."  He smiled at me "I am going home really quick for a shower and change.  I will be back I promise mom and your dad got permission for me to stay here with you."  "You don't have to babe."  "I know I don't, but I want to be here with you."  "Ok baby love you."  "Love you too."  After Noah left, I took a deep breath and opened the Journal.

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Noah:  I know you must hate me, baby.  I know I hate myself.  It has been a week since I left you broken and it was not something I wanted to do because you are my life.  I know I shouldn't have made love to you while I was back home knowing that when the time came for me to come back, I was going to break up with you, but I couldn't help myself.  I had to hold you and feel and taste your body, taste your sweet lips as much as possible because I knew it was going to have to last me for the rest of my life.  Yes, I know I can't say you will never forgive me for what I have done, but I don't think you ever will.  I didn't have a choice my sweet Shelly she has pictures that look like I am taking advantage of her and even though it was her throwing herself at me she said she would spin it to make me look like I was the one after her.  I can't risk her reporting me and destroying any future we have together.  If you ever forgive me, I need to know I can build a life for us for our children.

I promise I will do everything in my power to not ever make love to her or should I say have sex with her because I will never make love to anyone but you.  I love you Shelly, and I miss you like crazy.  The only reason it has taken a week for me to write to you is that I couldn't get out of bed from the ache in my chest.  Shelly baby I am dying without you.  Even though it has been five months since I came here to Harvard, we have spoken to each other every night since even if it was only for a few minutes.  It has been a week since I have seen your beautiful face, heard your gorgeous laugh and voice.  Shelly my love I miss you.

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Ahh, I just had my first date with that whore and all she did was cling to me and make me pose for pictures.  The good thing is that she has yet to try to kiss me.  I don't know what I would do if she does that the only lips I want on mine are your lips, Shelly.  The only woman I want in my arms is you baby.  My body aches to hold you.  Knowing that you will never be in my arms again is killing me.  Lee hates me, and so do mom and dad.  My parents won't talk to me because of this, and if they feel this way about me hurting you, I can not imagine what Max thinks of me.  I can't believe I am losing everything you, Brad, Max, and my own family because of fucking Susan.  Oh, yeah that is the skanks name.  Anyway last night I dreamt about you.  We were back at the Hollywood sign, and I was holding you close, and we made love like the first time.  Oh, Shelly baby I am nothing without you.  I promise baby I will win you back when she lets me go and when I do I will spend the rest of my life making it up to you.