The Kissing Booth A New Chapter.

94 JOURNAL 3

After leaving you with Lee and that asshat, I came to my room.  Damn, all I wanted to do when you were in my arms was pick you up and bring you here to cuddle with you in my bed.  The idea of waking up with you in my arms again drove me crazy.  I layed on my bed remembering all the times we just held each other whether it was after we had made love or when we were just cuddling.  Damn baby, I miss you so much.  I can't help but smile remembering you and Lee doing your crazy bestie dance.  Even though you two looked like dorks, I always loved watching the two of you because no matter what your my dorks.

Right, when I was getting ready to let myself drift off to sleep so I can dream of you, I hear you and Lee outside the door.  I smiled happy that you two still have your bestie time.  I started snuggling in deeper knowing you are home and safe.  The most important thing was that you were going to be going into your room alone.

All of a sudden I hear a knock on my door, I stood up hoping it is not one of the sluts around here that want me to sleep with them.  The only girl I want is you, baby.  The idea of them touching me sexually makes my skin crawl.  Low and behold when I peek out I see Lee standing there taking a deep breath I open the door.

Me: What do you want? I don't need you making me feel more like shit than I already do.

Lee: Look Shells is right we need to talk and fix this I am doing this for her.

Me: fine come in.

Right now I don't know if I should thank you for this or not but who am I kidding I have missed my little bro.  Even though he drives me crazy, I still love the little shit.  I watch him look around my room.  There is no way around the fact that my room is a practically a shrine to you baby.

Me: So, what do you want to know Lee.

Lee: Why Noah, why did you come home and lead her on to break up with her and end up with a new girl not even a week later. I know you intended to date that girl before you came home.

If only you knew little bro, I didn't have a choice.  She would have had me kicked out of school possibly arrested.  What kind of life could I provide for my Shelly the love of my life with that around my neck?

Me: Look I don't know what you want me to say.

Lee: Damn it Noah looking around this fucking room it is obvious you still love Shelly. You don't think I haven't noticed you watching her with Lewis. Every time he touches her you tense up. That is why I have been staying away from you. Plus you were not there when she saw that picture of you and that stupid Sandra character it broke her. She collapsed in my arms shaking we thought we were going to have to hospitalize her all she kept saying was I thought he loved me I thought we made love Lee all he did was fuck me. Noah, it almost broke me the last time I saw her that broken was when MARY FUCKIN DIED.

Shit, I didn't mean for that to happen.  I didn't think I would break you like that baby.  I really believed that you would move on and forget me until I could return and win you back.  Well, I hoped I should have known better Mary's death was so hard on all of us especially you.

Me: "The reason I did this was I had no choice." 

Lee:   "What do you mean you had no choice.?" 

Me: "Let me begin from the first day." 

Lee:  "Why should I? I wasn't kidding you, Noah, the last time I saw her that broken was when Mary died. For weeks she walked around like a zombie until Lewis started to help her put the pieces back together." 

Me:   "I don't want to hear about that fucking prick ok. Do you know what it feels like watching him touch her, to kiss her to think he is doing other things to her things that only I should be doing?"