The Choice

Chapter 10

I take Sam's hand and take him home before he freaks. I can't have him knowing that I kissed Kian. He didn't kiss me, I kissed him first...and I screamed because I fell onto his bed with him falling on me. God how I miss Kian. But I don't want to hurt Sam. He's so sweet, and funny, and protective. But Kian...he's just...perfect. I have to make another choice. Ughhhh! Why!!! When I hug Kian, I can place my head on his chest and hear his heart. But me and Sam are the same height, 5'8" so it doesn't have the same affect. I love that Kian is a good few inches taller cause I have to stand on my tip toes to kiss him. I can wrap my arms around his neck and he picks me up with my legs around his waist. I feel safer with him.

That's it. I can't keep doing this. I can't keep leading Sam on. It's not fair. I need to tell him...now.

"Sam..." I say. Stopping in the middle of the sidewalk.

"What? What's wrong?" He says hugging me. I shrug him off.

"I can't keep doing this. It's Kian. Earlier, when you heard me scream, it wasn't because he scared me, it's because I fell backwards onto his bed and he fell on top of me. I went into his room to find him and say sorry for everything. I saw he was crying and I felt bad for everything. I stood infront of him and took his hand and gave him a hug. I knew he was smiling as he had his head on mine. I kissed him and then fell on the bed. I'm sorry Sam..." I confessed.

"What are you saying? You don't want us to be together because you love Kian! I knew you loved him, but this is low. I thought you were mine. I thought I could wake up every morning to you beside me!"

"Sam I'm-"

"NO. SAVE IT! I DONT WANT TO HEAR ANYMORE!" He yelled at me before running. Leaving me alone in the middle of the street...

I curled up into a ball and cried. There and then.

~2hrs later~

I was sat in the same place with my head in my knees until I felt someone tap my shoulder. Kian. Just who I need to see just now...

"Go away" I sob without looking up.

"No. I was skating by and saw Sam run pass me. I have been looking for you for hours!" He says worryingly.

"Why?"

"Because I love you." He admits.

Wait. Did he just say he loves me?

"You. Love. Me?" I gape.

"Yes. I do. I know that you're not with Sam. He told Trevor and then he told me everything, trevor that is. Not Sam. We ain't on speaking terms at the moment."

"Kian. Can you come home with me and stay tonight? I need hugs" I reply with no clue with what he said 2 seconds before as I was in my own world.

"Of course. Anything for you."