Six hours later Jennifer finds herself avoiding Harshad. She had managed to compose herself after Naihal had left her hours ago, adjusting her messed up hair, long skirt and her face. She had calmed down blocking everything around her, everything that had happened thirty minutes ago and had smiled at herself in the mirror.
She buried her bruised heart and had promised herself to not let this, her problems affect Naihal in any way again. Because she had completely broken down in front of her bestfriend on her best days of her life, the moments she will be cherishing for the rest and Jennifer didn't want her to remember her break down, doesn't want her problems to be the highlight of her happy week. She can't do that to her best friend.
She can't because Naihal loves her like no other, because she will be equally heartbroken, be in equal amount of pain by seeing her cry, because she doesn't want Naihal to shed a tear, not if it's not a happy tear.
She wants her to remember her wedding, this whole week and only smile, only be happy and not remember feeling worse than ever. Because Jennifer knows Naihal, knows her in and outs, knows she will account herself as responsible for Jennifer's condition.
So she wipes her tears and gulps her sorrow and smiles widely at Naihal as she spots her in the crowd,enveloping her in a bone crushing hug letting her know everything is fine, that she is fine. And the smile that spreads on Naihal's face, the joyus laugh that leaves her lips makes Jennifer be at peace, makes her calm and happy. Because her friends who love her like no other are happy and that makes her happy, makes her want to smile and dance in their celebration. And she does, dances her heart out with her gang of idiots as they have a little celebrations with both the families.
But her smile turns down, confusion impending in her mind as she watches Harshad walking towards her, following her and trying to talk to her. She doesn't look at him though, doesn't want to face him after everything that transpired between them, doesn't have any energy left to face him again. And so she does what she has does best, run away from him.
There is really not many places to go but Jennifer manages to find many in the whole afternoon, engaging in meaningless conversations, trying to act as if she is extremely busy, going into kitchen spending time knowing he wouldn't enter there.
As the evening rounds up she breathes a sigh of relief as she realizes he has given up on chasing her. A small part of her is disappointed that he gave up so early but the other part of her reminds her that with him she should have expected it.
It's not like she wants to be chased by him, it's not either like she had planned on talking to him. She has got nothing planned but atleast he was looking at her, was trying to talk to her and was not glued to Alia.
"Jenny-" his voice comes pulling her out of her thoughts and she looks up at him. He sighs as he says "Finally, I wanted to talk to you. About everything that happened earlier. Jenny, I-"
" We had enough interaction for a day Harshad"with those she adjusts her anklet and turns around brushing him off.
She closes here eyes at his completely shocked face, calming herself down she straight away walked towards Aj who was going outside in the backyard with Aniruddh. She joined them not turning around, not even once. She gripped her skirt tightly at the want to look back at him as she can feel his gaze on her. And she knows her stance, her decision of staying clear off him and indifferent to him will falter. And she can't afford that.
She can't because for her he is her universe and he always will be. But for him Alia is his universe and in that Jennifer doesn't have any place. And she has come to adapt to that.
"Everyone! People! People! We are doing a bachelor-Bachelorette night! I know, I know it suppose to be different for boys and girls but fuck that!"
And everyone cheers at him, laughing as he is already pissed with bottle in one hand and other arm around Karan's as he announces. Jennifer laughs loudly hooting him as happiness blossoms in her heart - her friends have been there for her always. Even though she barely stays in touch with most of them, especially the once not in the industry but they are always in tune with each other. Always having laughs, sharing thoughts, enjoying life and its like a breathe of fresh air in her vacuumed life.
She smiles at Naihal who comes to her with two beers in her hands sitting on the couch as everyone is joking around. Her eyes moves around searching for him as she sips her beer only to halt as he sees him walking towards them and he is not alone.
Her chest constructs as she watches them talking softly, hand in hand as they approach them. Her eyes meet his, holding his gaze for a second and he pauses, barely listening to Alia.
She tears her gaze away ignoring the smile that drops from his face.
She feels relieved when Karan takes her hand in his pulling her in the middle of their small circle for dance, just as Alia walks right towards Naihal. Her eyes lock on Karan's understanding once as he twirls around making her beam as everyone sings loudly.
She throws her leg up as he dips her down, ending their little performance before he brings her back up and they finish the whole bottle in one go, everyone hooting. She laughs loudly hugging him as everyone chatters. Her eyes roaming over ebrdhone before stilling as his eyes meets her, finds him staring with a hard look which quickly changes into a smiling as Alia walks upto him.
Jennifer turns around confused yet hurt at their exchange. Them together is something she will have to bare for the rest of the week she thinks as she slums down beside Naihal,who immediately pulls her into her arms kissing her cheek.
She smiles remembering her promise to herself and hugs her with all her might, cheerfully wishing her on her marriage.
It's later when everyone is resting, forming small groups as they catch up, some are planning the upcoming party night, some discussing the outfits they have ordered for the wedding and others just chilling that she finds herself observing everyone around her.
Her mind is at peace in a way, even with things going absolutely wrong with Harshad, she is happy that he has found someone to cherish for the rest of his life. Her eyes goes to him who is in a conversation with Alia and it tugs at her heart. The place that used to be hers is now occupied by someone else, both beside him and in his heart.
She looks away as her poor heart can't watch them more than a minute, looks away and looks around as she accepts her faith. When Aniruddh's arms founds her she leans on him, smiling as she feels relived, feels blessed as he drops a kiss on her forehead,feels slightly better that she isn't in her apartment alone, isn't on thee other end of Karan's brutality and that is a big relief for her, makes her feel safe with her this extended family and she promises to herself that she will enjoy this coming days, take them away in a corner of her heart as a packet of bandages when it will get wounded, as she knows it will.
"She is not staying for the wedding" Naihal's voice breaks her thoughts and she looks at her before stealing a gaze at the couple lounging right infront of her
"Hun?" she blinks her eyes processing her words and Naihal smiles, a knowing smile as if her words are some Christmas secret and she is letting Jennifer in on it.
She brushes Jennifer's traces off her face as she repeats "Alia. Her boss is sending her out for a deal, soo... She is not going to attend my wedding"
A smile stretches across her face involuntarily at the news, happiness spreading through her as she wouldn't have to watch them in each other's arms, watch them smiling at each other as there is no one else but them in the universe, watch them makeout or kiss or touch one another and she is happy, happy that her survival is guaranteed now. That she can atleast enjoy her best friend's wedding with all her might as her heart wouldn't have to die every single day.
And so she smiles widely as she nods her head letting her know she's heard her but not saying anything as she enjoys the rest of the night.
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