Always

Fifth year: part one

The ride train to Hogwarts that year was miserable. Harry got a lot of crap from everyone for what had appeared on the Daily Prophet.

Draco was just the same. Although he was glad that he no longer had to be home with his father he still couldn't cheer up. Zabini and him sat on the train, giving each other serious gazes.

"Your dad talked to you too?"

"Yeah."

"Are you going to do it?"

"I don't think I have a choice, Zabini."

"You can run away."

"Where would I go?"

"You can stay with me."

"We both know they'd find me in a matter of weeks and I'm afraid they'll go after my family. Voldemort would probably kill them in a heart beat if they thought I was betraying him."

"Then your going through with it?"

"I-I-I h-have to." He responded trying to stop his voice from cracking.

"It cant be that bad Draco."

"How could you say that?"

"I don't know what else to say. I'm thinking about running away myself. Just like I've always ran away from my problems."

"They'll go after your family."

"Shit."

"We have no choice in this."

"Draco I don't want to make it worse but you have to cut off Harry from your life."

Draco gazed at him with fearful eyes.

"W-what?"

"No one knows your friends yet. That's good, but if anyone found out they'd tell everyone. If Voldemort knowns he'll use you to get to him. You'd only be hurting him. You have to cut him out of your life."

"N-n-o he won't! ZABINI HE WONT."

"You know he will. What would you do if he told you to kill him. Huh? What then? You know you can't disobey him."

Draco's eyes started to water. Then his voice cracked as he tried to say something.

"N-n-no one h-has to know."

"Draco it's not worth it. It'd be so much worse if you had to live knowing you were the one who killed him. Stay away from him. You have no choice."

Draco stopped tearing up. He looked up and without his voice cracking he spoke with a serious quiet tone.

"Ok."

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Harry got off and started walking to the carriages. Before he walked off with Ron and Hermione he spotted Draco walking behind him alone. The carriage was just about to leave.

"You guys can go ahead I'll wait for the next one."

"Why?"

"I'm uhhh waiting for Luna. She must still be getting off the train."

"Fine. Just meet us at the great hall."

"Of course."

The carriage drove away and Harry made his way back to Draco. Most of the students were already gone.

"Hey Draco. Haven't heard from you all summer. How you been?"

Draco looked at Harry with very hurtful eyes.

"Uhh Draco are you ok?"

"I'm Fine. What are you doing."

"What do you mean?"

"Why are you talking to me?"

"I just wanted to talk to you."

"Don't."

"I-I thought we were friends."

"We are not friends."

"Why you being such an ass?"

"That's how I always act. Just leave me the fuck alone Potter. I don't want to be seen around with you."

He walked off.

Harry saw him leave hurt. He was begging that he wouldn't leave but he just kept walking.

Harry's POV
I can't believe it. The one good thing about my life just walked away.

Luna got off the train and spotted Harry.

His eyes started to water.

"You ok Harry?"

"I-I'm Fine."

"You Don't look so well. Is everything ok?"

"Uhh yeah yeah. "

He responded wiping away the tears quickly. 

"Everything is fine. I was just waiting for you."

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Draco kept walking holding his tears in. He tried his best to walk away but his thought kept him from leaving.

Draco's POV
Stay away
Just stay away
Don't look back
Just keep walking

Draco couldn't take it. He found the nearest place to hide and cried into his hands trying to calm down.

Draco's POV
This isn't fair. Why did my father have to get me involved in this? Why couldn't he just keep me out of it? I'm so lonely. I'm so fucking lonely. I hate this. I hate this so much.