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Chapter 27.

Isabella's POV

It's the 5th of November, and I'm currently at work once again. I do like my job, but it can get really boring when you've got nothing to do but paper work with no one to talk to to help pass the time. But I am looking forward to when I get home. I've planned to tho home, and sleep. Yes, that might sound very boring to ordinary people who don't have a job and go out to the club at night or what not.

But when you own a company and have as much paperwork that I do, you'll understand how good it feels to go home, go to bed and just sleep.

Ring ring! Ring ring! Ugh. Why do I have an alarm? I don't remember having anything important today. I quickly grab my phone, and shit the reminder of. While reading it, my tired expression turned into a confused one then into annoyed and surprised expression. Weird mix, I know.

But today, was the 6th month anniversary of me and Lila's relationship. I wasn't really excited but I really can't miss it. You see mine and lila's relationship is complicated. It all started in day when I asked Lila to be my pretend girlfriend to see if Kenzie would get annoyed or jealous. But after it obviously didn't work, we started to hang out more and soon it became a close relationship, which soon developed into an actual relationship. Now, I knew that I never actually liked her in that way, but she helped me get my mind away from Kenzie whenever we were together. I needed that so I selfishly stayed with her even though I knew that it would end up with her getting hurt.

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I have been with Lila for a few hours now. We have just came back from an expensive restaurant , which I payed for. We then went to the cinema/Movie theatre, and watched another romantic movie which I personally didn't like or even watch because my mind was distracted and thinking about Mackenzie. Once again.

Why does this keep on happening. It's been 5 years. Why haven't I gotten over this? I bet this doesn't happen to ordinary people. So why is it happening to me? For god sake! (sorry if your a Christian. Don't know why you'd be reading this book if you were though. Lol) Why is this happening to me? It's not even like she could possibly like me either. She just thinks of me as a best friend. Nothing more. Nothing less. I guess I should be happy that I have her in my life even if it's not the way I want it to be. I don't have the right to company about my life when there's people in the world who are suffering far greatly then I am.

I feel so guilty for feeling like this. I'm on a date with my GIRLFRIEND And I can't stop thinking about someone else. I really need to end this with Lila by I don't want to hurt her. But if i continue this, I will hurt her even more hurt in the long run. I'll do it next t me I see her. I can't do it today. It would be too harsh.

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We just got back to her house. She insisted that I had to come because she wanted to tell me something important. I wonder what it is?

"So babe..." she starts of, but I immediately cringe when I hear her all me that. "We've been together for a while now and I think that's it's been perfect. We've had no arguments and I just wanted to tell you that I.. I lo..love you. I love you so much..."

OMG! She said she loved me. What do I do? I can't lie to her but I can't just stay quiet. OMG! Fuck! What do i do?

I guess my silence said it all. As I stared at my feet, back slouched over while sitting on the couch, I heard a slight sniff and her breathing becoming more deep and heavy.

"Y...y..you don't love me do you?" She asked. However, I once again blanked her. "Do you!!" She shouted obviously still upset and angry. I immediately looked up and walked to her when I seen the tears falling down her cheeks rapidly.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry Lila. I do love you it's just not like that. I didn't want this to happen or for you to find out like this..."

"Fun out what? That's you've stringed me along and don't actually like me? That you've stayed in this relationship even though you don't feel the same way for me as I do for you?! Do you know how bad and hurt I feel right now!" She said but fell to the floor in a heap, crying.

I immediately fell to the floor to and wrapped my arms around her comforting her. She stared to hit at my chest and shouting to em to let her go but I just held in tighter until she collapsed in my arms and clinged on to me as she cried.

After a while, she pushed me away and walked to the door. "I want you to go." She said. Before I can even say anything she continues "I want you to go Izzy. We're over. You obviously don't like me the way I like you so just go. Please".

I slowly nodded my head as I walked to the door. I stopped for a few seconds, and whispered "I'm sorry. I truly am. I never meant to hurt you this much." And then I left.

955 words.