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Chapter 29.

Kenzie's POV

OMG! Bella likes me! She likes ME! Of all the people she could like she likes me. Wow! And for 5 years. 5 fucking years. OMG! I'm so excited. I know what your properly thinking right now though. If your so excited and claim that you've loved her for the same amount of time, why didn't you say anything when she confessed her love for you?

Well to be honest, I was shocked. Just think about it. If your crush (crush might be a shit name for this, let's try love of your life, even though it sounds cheesy) of 5 years confessed there feelings to you, wouldn't you be shocked? I for sure was. But before I could even say anything, she was walking away from me and crying more and then she just fell asleep when I hugged her.

God, I love her so fucking much. But how am I going to say it to her. She properly thinks that I hate her because I stayed quiet when she confessed her feeling to me. I'm such an idiot.

Ugh! So here I am, in Bellas kitchen, in the same clothes I wore yesterday, waiting for her to wake up so we can talk. She won't even know how she got to her house since we were at Elenas. Speaking of Elena, I have to thank her for helping me get Bella back home.

Let me tell you something. As much as I love the girl, she sure is heavy because of all the muscles she's got. Have you seen her muscles though? She's got the most perfect body and I've never even seen it with anything less then her underwear and even then it's only while she's getting changed or if she's in a swim suit bikini. I must sound like a creep right now, but I love her so it's fine.

Anyway, she better wake up soon because I'm getting bored of drinking coffee and waiting. But I'm scared she might reject me. Crazy I know, since I practically rejected her by not saying anything and because she said she loved me last night, but I've always felt like this so it won't change for a while.

Isabella POV

Thump thump. Ugh my heads killing. What happened last night? Tick tock. Tick tock. Shit! Oh god. Why did I have to remember? Better yet, why did i have to tell her? Why the fuck did I have to go to Elena's? Wait! When did I get home? Where did kenzie go? Why am I asking so many god damn questions? Ugh. Izzy, stop. Great now I'm talking to myself. What is wrong with me? Ugh. I'm doing it again.

Slowly, i sit up. Huh, im home. Maybe Elena brought me home when kenzie left after I told her how I feel. God. Why did I have to tell her how I feel? I've ruined it now. 5 years I've kept my love for her a secret. Why couldnt I keep it a secret for another 5 years? Yes, I know that It hurts me but I'd rather have kenzie as my friend while I love her then as nothing while I still love her.

Ugh. Why does my life have to be so shit right now? Anyway, might as well get ready even though i wont be leaving my house. Wouldn't want to risk bumbing into kenzie. At least that's properly what she is thinking right now. Never mind, she won't be thinking about me. She never did and she never will again. That's what I did when I told her.

Sitting up, I look around the room. It's the same. I'm wearing the same clothes I did last night. I guess I should get hangs into some comfy clothes since I'm not leaving the house today. I go to my wardrobe, grab a sports bra, one of my black addidas tracksuit, and some fluffy socks. What's life without fluffy socks? They complete life. No one can disagree with that.

I walk to my bathroom, go in the shower, wash my hair, brush my teeth, brush my hair, dry my hair, brush my hair again and get changed. Now I feel refreshed. Still broken hearted but still, I'm clean. God, I'm so bad at finding a silver lining, or a good point as some people might say. Let's face it though, my life is basically over.

No point in complaining. There's no way to change the past, switch of my emotions or just forget bought all. I would if I was in the world of vampire diaries with Damon and Stefan and all that (Comment if your a fan of vampire diaries) , but I'm not so might as well carry on with life.

As I walk downstairs, I put on my zip up jacket over my sports bra, but leave it unzipped since I'm boiling. Ugh, geuss it just matches my emotions. I really need to be less emotional. You know, I was never this emotional before I met kenzie. People know me for being tough and trouble because of all the photo shoots I've done and all the press I get. But when I'm with kenzie it all goes away and I'm this perfect little girl who's trying to impress their crush that will never feel the same way for them.

Childish and pathetic I know. But what can I do? I've tried to not love her but it doesn't work. I've tried really hard to get over her and those who know about how I feel about kenzie have told me to get someone else to help me move on but the idea just sickens me. Once again, pathetic I know.

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