My Trans FtM Journal

Tiny rant

So sorry I haven't been posting, w/ mid terms coming up I've been busy. But now for the rant. Btw here's your trigger warning————————————————————————
So I ride the bus...in the south..in Texas, where kids grow up with Christian morals.

So my bus can get really fucking homophobic or transphobic. Idrc that the sometimes call me a tranny cus that's not an insult to me. But they do and they shouldn't.

Yesterday a lot of the kids said if they had gay or trans kids they'd kick them out, and well I wish their kids the best of luck. They told me no offense but if I had a trans kid I wouldn't let them transition and me being the depressed piece of shit I am said well then you have a dead and trans kid because they killed themself. They were obviously confused but I said what's worse a trans kid or a kid that kills themself, they agreed that a dead kid is worse (sin wise) and I'm like great, then let your kid transition or you won't have a kid, because if it was me and I wasn't allowed to transition I'd probably be dead right now.

We sometimes play truth or dare and when a guy would get "switch clothes with someone of the opposite sex" the look at me even though I'm a guy, because I'm only socially transitioning at the moment. They also define gender by what's in your pants. My dysphoria can get so bad being on that bus that I'm thinking on biking to school full time because I don't want to deal with this anymore. Anyway sorry if I triggered anyone today/tonight I didn't mean to but there's a warning. :)