Fragments

The Hurt Of A Heart

It's lunch time and I sit alone at a pale wooden bench, deep in my thoughts. I reminisce to last night, where I felt all the sensations of a lifetime in 6 minutes.
I feel a small nudge and then climb my way out of my thoughts. "You alright?" Ella asks me with an apprehensive look, I look up to her and nod and then say "I'm fine just thinking about our maths test" She looks at me with a face of concern, probably knowing I lied.
"Anyway did you know there's a new girl coming in!" She says quickly, I sigh and say "Really" sarcastically. Ella rolls her eyes and I scan the room to look for the girl, but instead stumble across Elena who is glaring me down. She notices me looking at her and immediately looks away. Weird.

Ella spins me around and then points her finger to a dirty blonde haired girl trotting down the hallway, she flicks her glossy hair and winks at some boy. He turns around and I instantaneously know that it's Ryder. He smirks at her and my blood boils. I feel anger flushing through my veins. Why do I even care?

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As I tread to class Ella catches up with me and asks me "What are you so mad about?" My eyes trail over to her and then I sigh.
I gaze around and pull her into the toilets. We wait for two girls to leave, "Spill the tea." Ella states. I tell her all about the kiss and the night I saw him in the street. and Elena staring at me, "You are crazy!" Ella exclaims, "Shut up." I snap at her, she smirks at me and then punches my shoulder lightly.

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Eventually I get to class and sluggishly walk into the room, I slump into my seat three rows from the front and drown in my work.
Simultaneously, Ryder walks in and sits right next to me "Hey." He says in his husky voice, I give him daggers with my eyes and then turn my head back to my work and let the teachers words wash out his talking.

A little while later Ryder asks me what's wrong and I can't stand him anymore. He knows what's wrong he just wants to play with my feelings. I furiously stand up and blast out of the classroom.

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Finally I appear at my house, as I walk up to the front door the memories of last night play with my mind. I put the keys in the hole and feel his warm touch clutching at my skin, I sense his warm breath as he sucks at my neck.
But it's not real, and it won't happen again. Ever.
I enter the hallway and chuck my stuff on the floor and slide my shoes off, feeling worn out I walk to the couch and plunge onto it.
I sit there for a minute and then I feel my nose tingle and I can see the dangerous tears hanging from my eyes.
Slowly, water gushes out and I bury my head into my hands and cry out my anger, Why am I even crying over someone I don't want to care about?
My eyes become heavy and swollen and I drift off to sleep.

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"Please put it down." I plead to my dad, he picks up another bottle and then dangles it in front of me "Do not tell me what to do Nevaeh!" He shouts to me and grabs my wrist. I jump back in horror trying to escape his grip, but it doesn't get me far.
I feel a sharp pain in my stomach as he hits me, shouting at me to be obedient and not carry orders around. Tears blur my vision and all I can hear is his terrifying voice and all I can think about is the agonising pain in my body-throbbing, fluttering, pulsing.
His hands let go of me and I can already sense the bruises forming around my fragile wrists, he stumbles off and I'm left here in the middle of the kitchen. My eyes fight to stay awake until they eventually give in and all goes black.

I gasp and open my eyes, I feel the cold sweat hanging off my skin and I'm still on the couch. I'm still here.
I gently wipe the sweat from my forehead and take a deep breath to calm down, I run my fingers through my hair and then fall back onto the couch and look up to the ceiling, I sit there for a moment and I can feel the hurt in my heart, even now after 5 tears.

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Heya! thanks for reading still, this chapter is a lil shorter but I hope you liked it. Till next time sisters ♡