Befall Us - Erwin x Reader

Chapter 6 - Hug

As soon as I step outside, I could feel the chilly air blanket my entire body as I run. A shiver runs down to my spine and the floor felt even colder it stings my bare foot.

His visit to my room has pumped my adrenaline and making me feel extraordinarily colder. It's freezing yet my heartbeat is thumping really fast burning my inner body.

I have no clue of why am I still running and chasing him up. What would I do after that?

I still could see his back, that sturdy wall. He is 45 meters ahead. I believe he notices me and hears my echoing steps, and now he is slowly turning back to my direction. and I'm still running and can't slow my pace.

"Easy (Y/N)!" He grabs my arms to stop me as I was losing control of my speed. He catch me and steady my wobbly move.

My heartbeat is going crazy, I could feel the heat building up. The confusion and longing strike together as strong feelings into my heart.

I try so hard to speak and sound normal "So, what are you going to do now?" I look down and hold back my tears, but I bet he can hear my voice shaking.

"Excuse me?" He looks confused. I was hesitating to answer him. I try to recollect myself as I wasn't even sure the trance I'm in right now.

"So, are you getting ready or going to sleep now?" I mumble while keep avoiding eye contact. I just can't resist his gaze, too intimidating.

"Oh, I'm not sure, why?" He quickly answers.

"Huh? I..." I am taken aback, he sounds cold. Hesitation clouded my thought. The rejection minutes ago should have awaken me for my unclear desire.

My eyes start to water. I know it won't do any good to me if I suddenly start crying. He might think I'm weird and unreasonably childish like a little girl.

I actually really don't understand what I'm doing here, why I become like this? I never felt this way before. I have no words to express my mixed feeling right now.

But honestly, I really want to tell him I miss him. But it's impossible. Who am I? Nothing ever happened that I should miss him.

Before I could answer him, he interrupts me and holds my hand. "Your hand is cold. (Y/N) Please go back to your room"

I'm shook. I let out a small gasp to my own surprise. My cheeks begin to feel hot and my breathe is leaving me.

What is he doing? He sounds very uninterested seconds ago and now, he is holding my hands?

"Don't tell me, you want me to carry you again?" He just teased me. My eyes widen. I brace my self to rise my gaze and I could see him smiling at me.

I can't help it. I don't understand why he is smiling. My mind is a mess right now yet I can't deny his beautiful smile. It's the most beautiful thing I've ever seen for a while.

I never seen this kind of smile of him. He ought to smile like this more. I think. Like there's no burden holding him back. Like he is a different person.

I enjoy the situation I'm in. I direct my gaze to what's in front of me, his body, well his chest precisely.

I close my eyes and bravely pulling him closer. I just hug the commander.

I won't care of anything at this moment but can't deny that my mind is all over the place.

What is his reaction? Is he going to hate me for real now? How if someone sees me like this? How if someone sees us again?

Suddenly, I think I hear him whispering softly "now, you did it". My eyes are opened. I wonder that he is expecting all this. But I can't say anything. I just can't believe he said it.

Hearing his words make me happy. I hug him tighter. I don't want to let go. His body like a rock, very firm and tough and feels gigantic right now. I become so tiny compared to him.

I could feel his hand moves onto my lower back and kind of hugging me back with one hand.

He is too tall for me now as he is in full uniform with his heels and me bare foot with my thin sleep-dress. My head is barely even to his chest.

All I could feel is how lovely this moment and I and his warmth. All the cold is gone in his arms. Now I could hear his heartbeats clearer even though it's still not changing. Just a normal beat.

He is releasing his hands and my arms that still wrapping his body very gently yet I'm still so close to him.

"Let's go back to your room". I look at him, he gives me a small sweet smile again.

"Are you going with me sir?" I giggle.