Girl Trouble - JENLISA (completed)

Chapter 6: Alcohol Treat

JENNIE

"How  are you confused though? Is there someone that made you question?' I  asked her.  I knew that was somehow, a provocative question but if my  suspicion is right, she is attracted to me, just as I am with her.  "Yeah, there is." She answered as she takes another shot of vodka and  shakes her head.

Fuck!  Is this conversation really going to where I think its heading? I'm not  even that drunk but now, it's just easier to talk about things that are  hard to say compared to when you're very sober. "I'll tell you who made  me question if you tell me yours." She said.

I  mean, that's fair but should I? What if there's someone else and am I  creating this whole imagination of mine that she's attracted to me as  well? Does she want to make sure I admit I'm attracted to her before she  tells it to me?

I  ended up not answering but she gave me a look I will never forget. She  looked me in the eyes as if trying to find answers that will not come  out of my mouth. I looked back at her and felt so exposed in her sight.  She knew.

She  knew the moment I stopped talking. I clenched my fists and prayed to  God the mood will change but she leaned in close to me to a point, I can  feel her warm breath on my mouth as she parted her lips. I did not move  though. I was rooted to where I sat as I swallowed hard and bit my  lower lip out of nervousness.

The  inevitable happened. She leaned in close and landed her lips on mine.  It was soft, her lips felt nice on mine. They were plump and she tasted  like a sweet alcohol treat. She kissed me some more as I felt her tongue  seeking for an entrance into my mouth. I parted my lips and gave her  the access she was looking as our tongues collided and danced in each  other's mouth.

My  head was spinning. I was taken beyond the clouds as her hands slid on  my nape and pulled me closer to her. At this point, I don't know how to  stop. The feeling she was giving me was way more than what I imagined  and right now, I was sure I definitely like women. More specifically, I  like her. However, what would it mean for both of us?

First  thing, we were just neighbors who don't interact with each other and  then the next thing you know, she's teaching me how to adult and now  we're in a roof top kissing the hell out of each other. I held her face  and put a stop to the kiss as much as I didn't want to stop, I needed to  pull my shit together and think for a second.

"Sorry."  She said. "For what?" I asked. "Because I kissed you." She said almost  feeling shy. "Did you not like it?" I asked afraid of how she'll answer.  "I did, I mean, I'm sorry I did it out of impulse." She said. "I kissed  you back though, there's nothing to be sorry about but I don't know  what comes after that." I said in all honesty.

"Maybe  we should continue being like this, I mean, getting to know each other  and all that. We're neighbors and I don't really see myself moving out  anytime soon, I think we have a lot of time to figure ourselves out."  She said and that makes perfect sense.  I mean, she makes perfect sense. 

We  don't have to rush anything. I just felt my real self finally woke up  after two and a half decades and I don't know what to do with it. It's  like this is an addition to the entire new life that I've been living.  To my surprise, the night didn't end with that kiss. If anything, we've  gotten a little more comfortable towards each other.

She  has always been how is except for the fact that she looks at me without  shying away now. I, on the other hand feel like I could do anything and  it starts with my life and how I've been feeling about Lisa. I  certainly want to find out if things with her develop or if we are going  to keep being the way that we are before anything happened.