It's All In Your Head {Sequel to STCG}

Chapter 6 ~ "I'll leave... If you do what I say."

[This chapter talks about suicide, therefore it may be triggering for some]

My mind is foggy with confusion. Excuse me? What did he say? Is this a nightmare?

I freeze on my spot, allowing the words to replay in my head. I'm nowhere. What does he mean?

"Wherever you look, you shall not find me."

"Leave me alone!" I excaim aloud. The voice chuckles darkly, evilly, and begins to speak.

"Never."

"Yes! Go away! Leave me alone!" I scream in frustration, storming over to the wall again. I place my hands against the cream walls, shriek my loudest and then smash my head against the wall with all my strength. I bang my head repeatedly, screaming desperately with all my might. I want to die, I want to kill myself on the spot to stop the taunting voices. They'll never stop, never ever, unless I end it all.

I've thought about suicide many times in the past, way too many times for any normal 14 year old girl. No matter how much counseling I get, no matter how many times I'm told Leather Face is gone, no matter how many locks they've secured on our doors, I'll never stop being afraid. How can I, after everything I've been through, after everything my delicate eyes have seen? I can't.

"You don't have the emotional strength to commit suicide. Even you know that."

"Please leave!" I plead, smacking my cheeks hard till they turn red raw.

"I'll leave... If you do what I say."

I stop abruptly, my hand wavering in mid-air. "Do what?" I ask curiously.

"A few tasks."

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"Emma honey? I heard a lot of banging on the wall! What's wrong?"

Mum entered without knocking, which made me scowl at her with frustration. Leather Face's first task for me is to be disrespectful and rude to my mum. I don't know why, and I also don't why I'm agreeing to do this, but the voices never leave my mind. He talks to me, forces me to do things I don't like just because he can — and he knows there's anything I'd do to make those voices go away.

"Go back out and knock!" I frown at her and she looks at me confusedly, putting her hands on her hips and raising an eyebrow.

"Excuse me? Is that how you talk to your mother?" she asks sternly.

"I don't care who you are just get out!" I shout and she storms towards me, putting her face right next to mine so I can smell her breath.

"Don't you take that tone with ME!" She grabs my hands and pins them above my head, before putting her face closer to mine. "Don't. You. Dare." I can feel her spit spraying my flushed face. All I can see is red, literally. My vision has gone blurry and before I know it, I yank my hands from her iron grip and smack her on her left cheek with all my strength.

She stumbles backwards, staring at me in shock and hurt. I begin to stutter, not knowing what had overcome me. My vision has gone back to normal, not a trace of red in sight... What have I done?

I watch fearfully as she puts her hand up to her cheek, which has a bright red handmark left on it. She winces at the stinging sensation before giving me one last hurt look, and turning on her heel to run out the door, slamming it as she exits. What have I done? The voices in my head aren't real, but I gave into them! I was weak and I ended up hurting my own mother, my own flesh and blood!

I feel my blood boil within me as I realise this was Leather Face's fault. He made me do it, he kept speaking to me and taunting me till I gave into him. I need to remember, I need to remind myself that it's all in my head. Because if I don't, and Leather Face wins, who knows the dreadful things I'll do? Who knows what he'll make me do, if I keep giving in?

Don't worry Emma, it's all in your head. I remind myself. He's not real, he's not speaking to you. It's all in your head

But even if it is all in my head... That doesn't mean I won't do what he tells me.

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Sorry this chapter was awful, I didn't know what to write about or when to end it.

Anyways, thoughts on what she did to her mother? O.M.F.G she totally hit her! And now Leather Face is stuck in her head, what will happen to Emma? What crimes will she commit in the future..?

PEACE OUT ✌