Deeply In Secret (BoyxBoy)

Chapter Three

   Everyday, when it's been the practice time i waited him anxiously and then my face lit up when I see him coming.

   Two months into this routine, I had a thought, a tiny thought, that I love him. It seemed preposterous, laughable. I showed it away immediately. But that thought started creeping into my mind whenever he was away. That thought sneaked in whenever he did something nice or made me laugh.. and it all came down to this moment, that moment when he looked and smiled at me, i knew this was it. This was the moment where I had to decide if I could allow myself to love a boy against everything I had previously known about myself. This was the time when I had to decide if I was going to take a step forward into this crazy idea of telling my best friend that I love him, but at least i didn't! cause i was scared..

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    A year after nothing changed, we met at a cafeteria and we watched football.. The game was over and both of us had a few of cake and coffee, we picked em and we went out.. (nowhere)
[trembling slightly]
he looked right at me and said :
- You know! You're an amazing guy.
i looked strangely and said :
- You too x, I'm lucky to have you.
- Can I share something with you?
- Sure , anything.

    Then he leaned in, close to me. I thought he was going to whisper something, so I turned my head, and he turned his head again! so we were now staring right at each other. Slowly and gently, he moved in to touch his lips to mine. I was stunned, and paralyzed. I honestly did not know what to think or what to do. I didn't pull him away, I just kept my head suspended in space too shocked.

    After a few seconds, he moved away and pressed his lips firmly on mine.. And somehow, i think that I kissed him back fully.. It felt so good and so real that it left me just shattered. I never knew that it was possible to feel that close with him emotionally. I didn't want it to end. ever.