Journal

August 20th

(2014)

Socially Awkward

Ugh. I HATE being socially Awkward. It's the worst! If only I was a little bit like Jenna ... Haha , no I love her but she's suchhhhh a slut xD

If you don't know what the hell Socially Awkward means, lemme tell you. Or at least give you examples.

Ex. #1:

Everyone's talking amongst themselves, and I'm just sitting there. Looking stupid. I bet they're talking about me. Or saying they don't like me.. Ugh maybe I should talk to them? No, they might not want to talk to me...

Ex. #2

Oh my god... No please don't leave! *Third person leaves and it's just you and someone else* "So... Having fun?"

"Yeah." The person smiles and nods. Then looks back to their phone.

*facepalm* I'm so freaking awkward. UGH. What should I say next? No I shouldn't even talk... They don't even wanna talk to me I mean they're on their phone. Ugh, kill me!

Ex. #3

Oh my gosh. I don't know these people. They're all staring at me UGH CAN THE GROUND SWALLOW ME ALREADY?! I should leave, why did I come to this party anyway?!

Ex. #4

*At a party or whatever with the only person you know* "Hey Gwen! This is *Y/N*. I'll be back, talk to her." *Looks at you and smiles at Gwen then leaves.

Oh my gosh, no no no no! *Gwen starts talking and you just stand there nodding* Please come back. Please come back. Please come back!

Okay, so those are some examples. You just fill uncomfortable with other people and you feel like if they think bad about you. But, 90%- no. 99.9%, they aren't even thinking that you're being awkward! It's just you, you feel like you're being so awkward and just messing everything up. But you aren't. Trust me. Everytime I feel like this I just try calming down, counting to three, and talking to the person. Sometimes, I don't even count. I just do it. It's better because you don't have to to think about it. And after I do, the person, or the people, talk to me and we just get alone fine. I feel relieved and happy that I was brave enough to do it.

Now I'm not saying that this happens all the time. I chicken out a few times, and just go hide in a corner. That makes the whole thing even worse! I just mess up the fun for myself.

So don't let that happen to you. If you are socially awkward or in one of those ^ situations, then just breathe. And go for it! Trust me, it's not easy at first, but you feel so much better after. And you feel braver too.

A/N:

Even though I don't know who my 29 readers are, I feel so much closer to you guys! Thanks for voting, and reading of course. This journal is just basically of me growing and improving myself, like I've said before, but I also try helping others with the same problem. Or similar. Some chapters won't be so pretty, they will be depressing. And some will give you a really close view of myself. If you guys have any requests, questions, or need advice, or just someone to talk to, please please please message me! I'll always answer (: