Journal

September 2nd

(2014)

Mean Parents

(Yay! First one in September:)

I've always heard about parents being mean to their kids, treating them badly, making them cry, and even hurting them emotionally. Or physically.

Honestly, whenever I heard someone say it, or even in a story, I'd be like what? Because it had never happened to me. I mean, they make us cry and are mean to, but compared to the way everyone else described them, it wasn't bad.

Until now.

I see what they talk about. I understand what they mean. But, don't worry, I understand everything except the physical part.

Being mean:

My Dad, ever since we've moved, hasn't really been the same with me. He sounds annoyed and irritated when I speak to him, and he's always mad at me. Which flows into

Getting treated badly. He calls me names that honestly, aren't pretty. They hurt, a lot. But I let it go. Yet, it

Hurts me emotionally and makes me cry. Today I had a game, it was about forty minutes away. When I was getting back I called my Father to tell him that we would get there in about 30 minutes. He told me if I wasn't there in that time then I could walk home. Before I would give him attitude, but I don't anymore. (I'll explain later) When The bus was about to go into the school Parking lot he calls me again, yelling and saying he's been there for over an hour and yelling "Where the hell are you?!" ( it wasn't over an hour. It was exactly 30 minutes. I checked the time when I called him.) Anyways, once I get in the car he tells me "This is the last time I come pick you up!" I stay quiet. I've had too much of his nonsense to answer him.

Once we get home I go to my room and cry quietly. I felt stupid for crying, but I needed to. We all need to have a night where we cry. I'm still crying as I type this... Haha.. I cried because I could let my anger and my emotions out.

I feel like I'm the grown up and my Dad's the kid. That's why I don't give him attitude. He knows that when I do, it's because he's affecting me. So he does it more, but I've stopped. I've let it go and I've been the grown up. I take things in my hand and I'm the one in control. he can't be doing this to me. No one should let their parents do these kind of things to them. I'm not saying fight back, but I'm saying stand strong. Don't show your weakness in front of them. Show them that they're acting like kids and you're acting much older. And if you have to cry, like me, then do it by yourself. I know, now, that sometimes it's too much. It gets overwhelming and you can't handle it. Just like they cant. But try being mature and showing them that they can't hurt you. Not anymore. Now if you get physically hurt, I'm sorry. I have not experienced that, and hopefully I won't. But if you do, please tell someone. That is the worst thing ever. I can imagine that it's scary, but please. Talk to someone.