Journal

August 3rd

(2014)

Complaining

I woke up, tired, but happy. I took a shower and let the water wash away my tiredness and stiffness. (Like in the stories) After getting out and I took in a breath and smiled. I felt good, if not better, about myself then I would've a week ago. Why? Because I learned to love myself. (Yesterday) And it's an amazing feeling, really. Anyways, I put on makeup, a cute outfit, and was ready to take on the day.

We (my family) went to the mall. I stayed with my Dad, because, eh why not? I started telling him about wanting cleats (for field hockey) and he just started talking about why I wanted to join that sport. "That's not a good sport. Honestly, there are better sports out there." He shrugged. "No," I had challenged, "You want me to join soccer. And I won't. If you want me in a sport it will be field hockey." (Wow, I'm mixing my writing in here.)

This morning I had told myself that I wouldn't let anyone or anything ruin today. But my Dad, with his ... Whatever you want to call it, did.

After the mall, we went to Wal-Mart. I hate Wal-Mart. Its so crowded and the people there are ratchet. (Wtf? Why did she say that...) Sorry, but yes. I don't know if you've even been to Wal-Mart, but the ones I've been to are ridiculous. The people irritate me, it's crowded, adding onto my irritation, and honestly some people there scare me. So, Wal-Mart ruined my day also.

But why? Had I not said that I wouldn't let anyone or anything ruin today? So why did I? Because I complained. Complaining just isn't worth it. So what if my dad keeps insisting that I shouldn't join Field hockey? Complaining won't change his mind. And so what If Wal-Mart isn't my favorite place? Complaining won't make it disappear. I didn't just let these things ruin my day, but I let myself ruin it also. Complaining just won't solve things. (Unless you are a brat complainer and get things done easily for you. I suggest that you start being independent instead of depending of other people.)

So, today I learned that sucking it up is really the way to go. Make the best of the worst. Making rude comments and what not in your head isn't going to help. It'll just make you feel - UGH. Don't do that to yourself, you don't want to be a stubborn person. No, you don't. Don't even think about saying "What if I do?" Just shut up and suck it up. Breathe, close your eyes, and find a way to make it better. There WILL be a way.

Suck it up with a proud smile.