What if...

Dazed

Tobias' POV

I sleep on the couch that night. Well i don't really sleep, more like stare at the ceiling waiting for the sun to rise. Natalie hates me. I hate me. What could possibly be so wrong with me that i would turn into my father? "Go to sleep" i hear Zeke say from the floor. "Why are you still awake?" "Can't sleep till you do." I nod even though he can't see me. "Right"

I wake up the next morning fully refreshed. Even if I slept on my couch. Why did i sleep on the couch? Getting up for my morning run i step on something solid. Not something, some one. Why was this son of a bitch here. In my house, wait, house? Why wasn't I in my apartment. "Wake up" i say kicking Zeke in the stomach. He curls up and coughs but just looks up at me. "Dude what was that?" I offer my hand to help him to his feet, then once he's up i smash my knuckles into his nose. I hear the crunch and know i broke it. "FOUR" he screams coming straight at me. I move out of the way only for my hands to be taken behind my back. Looking over my shoulder i see Zeke's dumb ass brother Uriah. Seeing as though he is tying my hands, very poorly i might add, i kick him in his groin and he doubles over in pain. In the corner of my eye i see Zeke rise with his hand and nose covered in blood. He charges at me and pins me to the wall, but i've always been the stronger one. I free my hand and twist his arm back probably dislocating his shoulder by the sound of the pop. He yelps in pain and falls to the ground. "Daddy?" i hear that whiny brat call from the end of the stairs. I look at the clock and figure it's not to early or late for her lesson. Taking off my belt i walk over to her and she screams as she runs back up the stairs. She's only trapping herself. Upon a room with a large bed in the center i see her crawled up with another annoyance. The blonde holds the girl in her arms and looks at me with fear, perfect. "This is for your own good." i say raising my hand. Then the blonde throws herself over the brat and stares at me. Her blue-grey eyes full with anger. "Step aside." she is interfering with my business. "It's me or nothing." she persists. I scoff and bring my hand back once again. "Four stop." again really? Uriah throws me against the door and tells the two brats to get out of the room. "Natalie go wake up Shauna." the blonde says. The girl runs out with tears in her eyes. Uriah still has his arm against my throat but he's so much smaller than me i can breathe easily. "Tobias, i know you're in there. Please come back please." the blonde pleads. She looks at me not sadly but she looks disappointed. I smile politely and throw Uriah against the wall causing the nearby lamp to crash over his head. Zeke comes over and starts to pin me again but i'm still stronger. His nose is already broken and streaming blood, so i punch him just above the jawline and once more in the stomach for good measure. I move on to the blonde and she doesn't even flinch when i smack her across the face. "Tobias. Stop" "How do you know that name" i scream shoving her on the bed. I go to punch but she catches my hand and holds my other one. "Think about the baby" she whispers into my ear before leaving the room. The baby? I hear a click in my head. The baby. What have i done?

Standing in my bedroom i see what i just did. Uriah is lying on the floor with a shattered lamp around him. Zeke is doubled over clutching his stomach with blood dripping out of his nose. I take off running for anyone. I need to be better, i can't be like this not with four kids in the house. "Tobias where are you going?" Tris calls out from behind me. I turn around with tears in my eyes and give her a kiss. "I'm going to find help. I'll be back. Tell them i'm sorry" She nods and gives me a hug. How can she forgive me so easily. 

The hospital is the first place on my list. "I need to see Caleb Prior" i say to the receptionist behind the desk. She looks at me over her glasses and nods. "Brother in law correct?" i take a step back "How did you know that?" "He's been expecting you. Third door on the left." she says pointing down the hall. I nod and walk down the hallway. I open the door and instantly regret it. Caleb stands there with Matthew and Peter. "I'm sorry Tobias" he mouths. The door slams behind me and Peter comes and ties my hands up. "Don't worry, you won't be here long."