yeah, so uh, the last entry. It's really weird. I don't know how to feel. I'm really nervous, so I'm sorry if it sucks. I'm really not used to recognizing and writing down my feelings and letting someone read them, my whole life I've always put everyone else first, so doing this is a big deal.
Over the course of these 95 tiny pages, my life has definitely completely changed. I can't believe that I found someone to fall in love with.
Someone amazing.
Someone whos funny, caring, genuine, loving, giving, welcoming, appreciative, humble, respectful, weird, trustworthy, and unique. (And attractive oops). You're so different than everyday people.
I'm so lucky to have fallen in love with that. If you weren't, I wouldnt be writing in this right now.
Its crazy how life puts you in these crazy situations that I never would've imagined, you know?
Everything happens for a reason.
I will never, ever regret or take advantage of the fact that I've fallen so deeply in love with someone so incredible.
That "someone" is you. Its crazy.
You have taught me to be not so afraid of falling in love. I have realized that it is good. I've realized that I am capable of loving someone, despite my messy, negative, anxiety-ridden mind, and my dad's awful choices toward my mom.
I said earlier in this journal,
"Maybe you can be my change"
You are my change. I see more positivity in the world and in myself.
I will forever be grateful for you, the things you've given me, these words in this journal, the people who have supported me or dealt with my rants about you, and lastly, I will forever be grateful for the fact that i have fallen in love for the first time, fallen in love with you.
my muse.
I love you.
-a.p
i hope you love my words.
YOU ARE READING
words to you, my muse
Romanceyou said you liked my writing. so here's a journal full of it. ================================ read with an open mind. all words/entries are written by me unless stated otherwise.
