i'm almost finished copying down all the entries to my laptop. I want to have them to look over later, since I am going to be giving you this journal.
which is happening in 7 days. I am going to give you my heart in 7 days.
I'm ready.
I've been waiting to do this honestly for a while.
I'm glad that soon you will know what I truly feel for you, since right now you just know I simply like you.
It's going to test my anxiety, but me knowing that you will know and read the words I have written for you is good.
finally.
as I was copying these countless, long entries down for you, I got frustrated.
I felt like the words I have given you aren't good enough. some parts are poorly worded, and my handwriting is messy.
But, I realized, it doesn't matter.
this journal was one take. it was sentimental, emotional, it was real.
my real feelings, which are messy, so I'm glad that some entries can showcase that.
one last thing for tonight, I want to let you know that if you look at the dates, pretty much every entry are all written on different days. so some things that were occuring at that moment in time have changed now. I had been talking in one entry about how you don't seem to want to talk to me, but recently, we've talked more. it's not as much as I'd love, but not everything can be perfect. so, keep in mind that things have changed, my feelings have been back and forth over the last 2, almost 3 months.
YOU ARE READING
words to you, my muse
Romanceyou said you liked my writing. so here's a journal full of it. ================================ read with an open mind. all words/entries are written by me unless stated otherwise.
