Transformation: Blooming Forever More

Mini Piece 6 - Inconsequential

Have you ever been left feeling like you don't matter in the end? Like when someone better comes along, you're totally ignored, and pale in comparison?

Welcome to my kingdom.

I know well that I am loved: by my friends, by fans, by my teachers. But my family are the people that I'm never sure of.

They seem to change from one view to another about me constantly (my extended family don't see me very often, so their view is quite limited. They are nice most of the time, as is my Dad), especially my Mum and sister.

My Mum and sister are very similar: they find it easy to make friends in social situations, and have a wide array of friends. They manage to have an opinion about everything, and they are constantly talking.

Unfortunately, this often means that I don't get a word in edgeways about most things, and when I try to have a conversation I get interrupted before I can finish a sentence.

It's usually better now, as my sister has been at university for a while, so I don't have to deal with her constantly. But when she is around, she soaks up all the attention. Which causes me to question: am I really important?

It's made me realise that they totally could've lived without me, that they could have been one happy family and been ok.

I'm a piece that doesn't fit into the puzzle.

The circle trying to fit into a square template.

The ugly duckling disguised as one of them.

Why do they allow me to stay with them when I'm so unlike them? I'm never going to become like them, so why? Is it to torture me? Or because they pity me?

I don't want pity.

I want the truth.

Do you really care?

Or am I as inconsequential as I feel?