Things ill Never Tell

bad?

I'm here sitting
with a friend,
the smell of coffee runs through
my veins,

But I'm here,
I'm here,
writing about what's happening

i crave your touch,
i crave you..
with coffee waking up my senses
like a kid in summer waking up early
to go play with his friends.

i wish things were different,
so i wouldn't have to wish.

You are not a bad person, 

You are just.. Lost

My friends..

Want me to tell them what happened between us, 

Why my eyes are duller

Why my breathing became shorter

Why im not smiling from my heart

But if I start talking, I might start crying

I might throw my coffee on the ground and the tables turn

Not because your bad

Because feelings aren't going to come back

I might be with you, but I won't look at you the same

I look at my friends

How happy they are

And I can't help but wonder about you

Are you in love?

Are you happy without me?

Are you sleeping?

But I can't help but smile

Why did you have to hurt me?

Why did you have to make me cry every night?

Why did you have to kill who I was?

Why did you have to make people miss me when im with them?

You are not a bad person, you are a person who made bad things.

And the past never identifies you

But your actions does.