Antisocial [h.s]

[twenty-five]

"What do you want to do?" I asked Harry, holding onto his hand for security as we walked.

"I dunno, wanna see the London Eye?" he offered. "It's really cool, I haven't been on it since I was a kid, though, I went on it with my mum and Gem.''

"Sure, but to be honest, heights aren't quite my strong suit, like being around people so uh, I don't know how I'm uh, gonna handle it," I admitted, biting my lip as I watched the floor, some lad bumping into me and I inched myself closer to Harry, my hand tightening around his.

"Well, what comforts you? What would calm you down enough to enjoy it?" he asked and removed his hand from mine briefly and he wrapped his arm around my shoulders and I took a deep breath to calm myself.

"Your's or Liam's presence,'' I admitted, bringing my bottom lip between my teeth again as I watched our feet match their strides and it relaxed me slightly, focusing on it.

I felt him press his lips to my temple and I felt the heat rise to my cheeks as a smile crept upon my lips. "I'm honored.''

"When you're in a bad or stressful situation what calms you down?" I asked curiously, attempting to draw the attention away from me.

"Uh, a few things," he mumbled awkwardly and I looked up at him and found an expression Liam used to use and I knew exactly what he meant.

"I'm not mad at you for it, Harry. People go through rough patches and they sometimes go to extremities to try and take control of something," I explained quietly. "Believe me, I understand the need to have control of something, anything, and I know what it could force you to do."

"Are you talking about your eating disorder?" He asked and his eyebrows furrowed together.

"Sorta, yeah, and Liam's problem. Can you just promise me something?" I spoke quietly, biting my bottom lip.

"I can try," he replied and I looked up at him.

"Can you be responsible with it? Like if you're not gonna stop can you try not to let it take over your life?"

He smiled softly at me and nodded. "I promise. And by the way I'm stopping it, it's not that great anyways.''

And even though he played it off cool, like it wasn't even a big deal, it meant so much more.

~~~

"Oh, shit,'' Harry mumbled repeatedly and I couldn't stop laughing, I kind of felt bad but I couldn't believe someone of his height was afraid of heights. "Shit, shit, shit, I don't remember it being this high when I was younger, maybe because I was closer to the ground or I had my mum and sister with me so I wasn't afraid but oh shit.''

Something about him being this way was just so adorable and the fact that I wasn't scared for once made me enjoy everything so much more, it was hardly busy since kids were in school and adults were at work. Although, since I wasn't the one afraid I wasn't sure how to deal with someone who was afraid.

I stepped behind Harry and placed my hands on his hips and slowly inched him towards the window of the capsule. "Blake, no, not going closer, we're going to fall through the window and die.''

"Being a bit irrational there, babe,'' I told him calmly as we neared the window, less than an arms length away and it looked incredible to me but Harry was still tense and I tried to remember what Liam would always do to calm me.

I smiled to myself and wrapped my arms around Harry's waist and leaned over slightly so I could rest my head against his arm and Harry's body slowly relaxed into me and he turned in my arms so he could rest his arm along my shoulders and I felt goosebumps rise to my covered skin even though I felt heat in my cheeks, what could this even mean?

He kissed the top of my head and I heard a camera's shutter go off and I turned around to find a woman wiith a professional looking camera and she smiled, walking closer. "I'm sorry to interrupt,'' she sounded American,I think. "But I'm writing a piece on the London eye compared to other various famous attractions of the world and I was wondering if I was allowed to use this picture of you two because it's so hard to find this type of genuine caring and love with models and actors who hardly know each other."

Harry looked at me and I nodded, "Yeah, sure, but can we see the picture?"

The woman nodded eagerly and clicked a couple buttons and then turned her camera's screen toward us and my breath caught in my throat, the picture was taken at just the right moment and we were almost like silhouettes because the sun was shining towards us and Harry's eyes were closed and I was leaning into him whilst he kissed my head and we just kind of fit together in a strange sense, like we were almost perfect height differences. I absolutely adored this picture.

"I can email you the picture once I upload it to my computer if you'd like?" she offered and Harry smiled.

"I'd like that, thank you,'' she pulled out her phone and Harry typed in his email address and she thanked us again for letting her use the picture and then she stepped off and walked to the other side of the capsule to let us enjoy the rest of the ride.

Harry was more at ease when we walked back over to the window, this time it was him wrapping his arms around my waist and he rested his chin on the top of my head. "Y'know, that would be the perfect picture to start that photography thing you agreed to do for me,'' he mumbled into my hair and I rolled my eyes.

"Y'know, if Liam ever finds that picture he's going to torture us,'' I told him and he chuckled.

"Without a doubt,'' he agreed. "But I'd like to frame that photo, I don't have nearly enough proper photos in me dorm or room at home. And I don't care if Liam sees the photo because then he'll just convince you to go on a proper date with me and then you'll fall madly in love with me.''

He then laughed and gave my waist a squeeze but that didn't prevent my heart from hammering.

I felt Harry tug my phone out of my backpocket without actually touching my butt and he held it out in front of me, going to the camera and switching it to the front camera. "What the hell are you doing, Harry?"

He just smiled and i rolled my eyes just as the camera clicked, I then caught him frowning at me through the lens. "Smile,'' he commanded me and when I didn't comply he tickled my waist and I guess I gave him the reaction he wanted and he took another photo. "Beautiful,'' he commented and I tried my best not to frown but it just took over my expression which resulted in Harry frowning as well. "Blake.''

I just shook my head and took my phone from him and switched the camera to the back one and took a pic of the lovely view as we descended again. "Sorry, I kinda just ruined everything.''

"You didn't ruin anything.''

I pursed my lips and stared at the view just as 'Use Somebody' started to play through the speakers in the capsule and Harry took my hands and spun me around. "What are you doing?" I rose my eyebrows at him but he only smiled at me and twirled me around once and then placed one hand on the small of my back. "This seriously isn't the song to slow dance to.''

"Yeah, but it's a song I know and like,'' he replied and pulled me closer. My heart fluttered, but not in the way it usually did because of my health, it fluttered just for Harry.

It was when he was trying to get me to dance with him that I realized I am infinitely screwed.