there's confusions,
in delusions
my aspiration was to be free,
yet with you I am me,
made my walls fall so quickly,
told you all - which doesn't fit me,
usually I never dare to be
deeper than what you see,
cause what meets the eye
comes out as disappointing and shy
you made me fall in and out,
realised real yet was too late to shout,
showed me what was before had always been just doubts,
you made me fall in and out,
one night,
just answers I didn't know I needed
for questions I didn't bother to see yet
real recognize real, right?
well, then why does it feel like a fight?
should've been easier from then on,
but only took moments to break bonds,
what's dear to you has been my all,
that is why no one will catch my fall,
can't even tell her my emotions,
with her feelings the same it could cause explosions
and your happy smile when you told me
that she was all you could see,
bitter sweet tragedy,
for she is my soulmate,
who I will always put before my own fate
and you are my family,
in a place where I needed sanity,
what bitter sweet tragedy
you made me fall in and out,
but it's a little to late
to build on just faith,
in the beginning the night didn't seem like it could be spent,
hours without pretend
had my heart and mind bend,
yet in the end,
you're still only my friend.
©️TrueTrizz
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White Lies • a decade's diary
PoetryAbout the girl I used to be, am currently and will be in the future. • » Look in the mirror and you'll see me clearer « • white lie noun plural noun: white lies a harmless or trivial lie, especially one told to avoid hurting someone's feelings.
