Falling Slowly | Luke Hemmings

twenty six

{ Luke's POV }

Hours and hours have gone by, and I'm still awake. It was now around two in the morning, and I wasn't tired one bit. Michael, Calum and Ashton left around 10 to go home, so I was left alone. I wasn't sure if my mum was home or not, but she wouldn't check in on me anyways. I was still paranoid about this whole situation with Scarlet, whether she felt the same way about me or not. I couldn't imagine if she didn't have any feelings for me from all the good times we have recently spent together.

I didn't know why I couldn't fall asleep tonight, well I haven't even tried. This feeling got me sick, and angry at myself that I couldn't even sleep since it was all spinning around in my head. I didn't know how much longer going without Scarlet knowing how I feel about her.

I was pacing back in forth in my room, the lights still bright throughout my room. I had my stereo playing soft music throughout my room in hopes to calm me down. I didn't want to bother the guys about this since they've already helped me so much with this situation. I had to deal with this myself, and tell Scarlet how I feel about her, and that moment will be soon. It was only Wednesday, and I'm going to plan on telling her on Friday. I didn't want to do it on a week day, but on a day where we had a lot of time to be together. I didn't want to go after school, and then have to leave hours later because we had homework to finish.

As I kept walking back and forth through my room, tugging at the ends of my hair, I figured out something I could do. I walked over to the corner of my room, and took my guitar off of its stand. I sat at the edge of my bed, strumming along to some random tune. I knew this would help me, by playing my guitar. Usually playing my guitar, or even writing some music will help me go to sleep, and even calm me down.

I continued to strum a couple cords, until I found some tunes that fit perfectly with each other. I set my guitar down on my bed, and walked quickly over to my desk. I cleared off my desk, pushing everything to the floor, to make my room even more messy. I raced through my desk drawers to pull out a blank notebook, and a spare pencil.

I brought back my guitar that I placed in my lap, and then brought the paper to the end of the desk. I started scribbling down a couple words that could fit well together, and go well with the rythm that I just discovered.

"But I found my sweet escape when I'm alone with you." I quietly sang to myself, and scribbled it down on the blank sheet of paper in front of me. I wrote down those lyrics, just for the sheet of paper to get crumpled up and thrown on the floor. I couldn't think of anything to go with those words, and they didn't match the music that I have already played on my guitar.

"Even though my dizzy head was numb," I softly started to sing, "I swear my heart is never giving up."

I smiled to myself, thinking that I finally matched the lyrics to the music. I got my guitar ready, and tuned it to hopefully fit perfectly with the lyrics. I strummed a couple cords, and started to sing the words I had just written, but of course the didn't match. I didn't want to change the music, I needed to find the perfect lyrics to match them.

"Let's forget the past, I swear we'll make this last."

"I remember the way it felt inside."

I wrote those lyrics down under the previous ones, in hope of these to match. Over and over again, I sang the lyrics that I just wrote, to have them still not match the music.

"Damnit!" I quietly yelled, pounding my fist against the desk. It was getting close to three in the morning, and I wasn't giving up until I was completely done finding the perfect lyrics. I don't even know why I was making myself do this, but something inside me was telling me to.

After minutes of pacing back and forth again through my room, I finally decided on what I was going to do. I decided that I was going to play the music from my guitar a couple more times, to become more and more familar with the sound.

After strumming the beat for about twenty minutes, I have finally calmed more down. I felt more relaxed, and told myself to focus on these lyrics and not to get upset.

I tore all the sheets of paper with other lyrics on them, and threw them onto my floor with many other things. I got a clean sheet of paper in front of me, and a pencil in my hand.

"But you are everything I want, and everything I need,

It's all because of you, I can barely breathe,

When we wake up in the morning,

It's a brighter day,

We sail the high seas,

Cause baby you and me, we can always be,

I just wanna call you mine." I quietly sang, as I strummed along on my guitar.

I found that these were the perfect lyrics, and I finally did it.

"But you're so beautiful,

and you're incredible, irreplaceable,

I never wanna loose my baby." I sang again, mentally giving myself a pat on the back for how easy these words are flowing out of my mouth.

I kept strumming on my guitar, as more lyrics kept pouring out of my mouth.

"But you are everything I want,

And everything I need."

After all this time of writing and thinking this song over, I knew it was about Scarlet.

A/N: sorry this was on the short side but double update yay! so that song 'everything i want' is one of my favorite acoustic songs that they have ever sang together and i thought it would be cute for this story :))