[Complete] The Rose That Changed My Life [Rose x reader]

24. One Final Song

Y/n POV

We decided to leave later the next day to go back home to Korea. Choosing later in the day so that we could stop to see Mr. Ferris so I could break the news to him. I think his heart broke more than mine. Makes sense in a way. The band is like a family. Brothers and sister. But we were all like his kids, just as he had said the day before.

We said our goodbyes and left for home on a long, quiet plane ride. We watched the movies that I had loaded onto my computer for the trip. Chaeyoung cuddled up to me, taking any chance she could to cheer me up even if only little. It was hard to cheer up though. One of my best friends was now gone and my mind raced at a million thoughts a second. Why hadn't I seen it coming? I should have been there to help. Why hadn't he told any of us what he was going through? We would have all of been more than happy to be there for him. I'm one to talk. Look at me. I suffer from depression to, I should know better than anyone what the answers to my questions were. You were only seventeen, Jamie. You had one hell of a life laid out and waiting for you. I just wish I could bring you back and show you. You're not alone, you never were.

Upon arriving , the first thing we did was visit the orphanage to talk to Mrs. Eun. We wanted to give her the paperwork she needed from me, Chaeyoung already had hers, and let her know what recently happened. We all decided it would be best to wait until everything was taken care of regarding Jamie before I took the boys. I had received an email while in America that the house was mine and the payment was accepted. I decided I would pay half now and then pay off the other half within the year. Between myself and Chaeyoung it should be fairly easy. I had to wait until seeing the house again to get measurements for furniture, but as of now, we had a house.

Chaeyonug had to go in for a meeting with Mr. Yang, she didn't wanna go with the state I was in, but I assured her I would be fine. As I sat on my bed, elbows rested on my knees, head rested on my hands, I noticed the bag Jamie left on the table for me that night with my name. I slowly stood up and walked over to it, and opened the bag. I reached into the bag and pulled out and envelope, inside of it a piece of paper. I unfolded it and began reading.

Hey Y/n,

By the time you're reading this you probably already know what happened to me. I also know that right now you're blaming yourself, thinking you should have known or seen the signs. Stop it. Just know you gave me years. The day you approached me and invited me to bring my keyboard I had every intention of killing myself that night. Atlantis Rising gave me a purpose, friends, no, a family. You and the rest took care of me better than my own family had. We conquered stages together, went through stacks of fan mail, emails, and all that full of gratitude and thanks for saving the lives of fans with music. Y/n I Accomplished something. I made a difference. You guys gave me that.

You've done so much for me, and held back the hate I had for myself for so long but it just boiled over and I couldn't take it anymore. I'm sorry I wasn't stronger. You were an inspiration to me ever since I heard the band for the first time and being able to be a part was even better. You're the best songwriter and producer I've ever met. Please, write something to heal those in the same spot as us. Don't let depression take another victim. Give them a shoulder.

In your bag you'll find the necklace with the guitar pick I always wore. As well as three band style rings with "Uncle Jamie will always Love You". I got them for the boys and Diamond threw in a third for free. It has my signature engraved on the inside. Even though I'm gone I want them to know I'll love them the same. Wish I could have met them, but hey, you and Chaeng will be great parents! I had the foresight to have him save the template too, just in case you or anyone in the band end up with more kids. Take my gear and add it to your studio, I'm sure it'll help out a little. There's plenty there.