The eyes of the human body can see more than 10 million colors, however my eyes only focused on the little things about you. Each chapter is a memory that we shared at one point. I thought you were the next "Drew Barry," but I was wrong.
This book...
Chemistry, the most interesting and disastrous subject that I took in my high school life. The subject wasn't what had made it so bad, but the people,teacher, and events that took place in that class are what made it bad. You would always text me during chemistry. We would text back and forth and at one point, I almost got in trouble because of it.
The friends I had in that class are why made it bearable. They always made me laugh which is what I needed on a daily basis. Joseph and E.J. are the two guys I'll never forget. Anytime I had problems with you or when we got into an argument, the next day they were both the two people I'd be talking to it about. If anyone of you two guys are reading this right now, thank you for listening to what I had to say. Without you two, I wouldn't be where I am right now as a person.
One memory that happened in that class was the first time we "broke up". When I say we broke up, I mean she treated our argument like we had just broken up. This meant she wouldn't talk to me, she would post stuff on her story regarding "us", and the words she used before she stopped talking to me, that's what made the situation one hundred times more real. When I say that the words she used made the situation real, boy do I mean it. I'm not going to use any of her words but she hurt me with what she put. You really made me feel like the worst person in the world.
The argument was about her comparing herself to me. She told herself that she was ignorant in many ways while I ,wholeheartedly, tried to tell her that she was in fact the complete opposite. I never in my mind believed that someone would compare themselves to me, not even the girl I like. She kept telling herself that she was out of my league and how I should find someone else. You weren't out of my league, I was out of yours. You were never dumb, you were the apple of my eye and that meant I never saw intelligence as a flaw. You were the one for me, I didn't need ,nor want, anyone else but YOU. I tried telling her how she was incorrect and how she should listen to me because I did not want her putting herself down. In the end, she went on to say how we should end things because it would be for the better. I completely disagreed however, I had to let her have the final say since I believed there was no way of winning her back.
Now I don't remember exactly how this rolled over, but we didn't talk for four days. Four days without feeling your warm compassion, four days without waking up to write you the long morning paragraphs that I promised you when we started talking, four days without walking around school with a smile on my face. You really made me dread going to school each one of those days. All I could think about was that every time I went to chemistry, it would bring back the pain of losing you. I would think to myself, "Is there something I could've done to prevent this," or, "Was I not good enough for you?"
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Did you not mean what you said? I really though you were going to break up with me but just four days later, we fixed things. I still wanted you even though four days earlier, you did not want me. I could never understand why you said those words when you never really meant them. You lied to me, something I never thought you would ever do. I trusted you so much and put all my faith and belief in you. This was the first time we had an argument like this, but I would never think that we would continue to fight like this all the way until September.
