Lunar's Eclipse || Wattys 2019

Thirteen: Remember

Two Months Later...

LUNAR'S P.O.V

"Wear the red, or the blue." Tess says but I throw on my simple black gown instead and put on sandals.

"At least try to show interest."

"I can't pretend to be excited when I'm not, I'm only going on this because you asked." I say as I grab my car keys.

Ever since the accident, I decided to finally get my own car so that the moment I feel like driving off in a haste, I'll at least be wrecking my own car.

"I'll probably see you in an hour." I say and Tess gets up from her bed and hugs me.

She does that a lot now every time I'm about to leave the room,...like I'm going to have another accident.

I shudder at the thought.

"Try to play nice. It's your first date since Nathan." She says and I roll my eyes.

"You make it sound like I haven't been living my life as usual. I don't need a guy to survive Tess."

"I know that. But I don't want you to have a negative view of guys." She pleads and I shrug.

"Sure, whatever." I say and leave.

Dating Nathan hadn't defined me, because even though it was hard...I found myself laughing and smiling and living everyday.

Like it was easy.

But it wasn't...And it isn't. I still see him, his green eyes, his thick hair and that amazing side smile, his deep laughter and the soft way he calls my name.
When I'm alone memories of him and with him creep into my thoughts and release the bolt on my tears.
I still did my charity routine, and I still bumped into him every time I stepped into their restaurant....
Or in class...
Or the cafe...

Dating Nathan hadn't defined me, but it had affected me in ways that could never be replaced...

Or forgotten.

And no matter how much I try not to,.... I still remember.

NATHAN'S P.O.V (Song: Mess is Mine).

"Stay still." I say to Emily as I fix her seatbelt in the passenger seat of my car, but she is still giddy and excited.

"Can we have both burgers and fries?!" She asks and I chuckle as I start the car.

"Of course. They come together."

"Can we have burgers and fries and pizza?" She squeals with excitement.

"No, you'll get a stomach cramp. I promised your mum we'll get just one meal. So what's it gonna be? Pizza or Burgers?"

"Whose is this?" Emily asks and I briefly turn to what she's holding.

There is no doubting who the grey beanie belongs to.

"Lunar." I say and I'm swarmed with the usual memories that I get when I say her name....Which happens a lot.

Sometimes when I'm sleeping and dreaming of her...

Or when I see her at the restaurant and she waves at me with that tight smile...

Or in class.

I wish she wasn't so far away...that I had handled this better.
Handled us better.

But at least she is happy, when I briefly pass her by or catch her laughing at something or asking a brilliant question in class.

She is happy. And that's all that matters. I can't rebuild what we had...
But at least I can relive it.

All I have to do is remember....