Lunar's Eclipse || Wattys 2019

Eighteen: Questions.

I rush to Lunar's room and impatiently knock on the door.
Endlessly.

"Sheesh, Lu! I'm coming." Comes her roommates reply and it crushes every bit of hope I had left.

She thinks I'm Lunar.
Meaning Lunar isn't here.

The door opens and she gasps at the sight of me.

"Nathan?"

"Please tell me you've spoken to Lunar." I beg, hoping that at least I can get a clue.

She looks confused.

"No...Not since today." She says slowly.

"Oh God." I mutter, covering my face with my hands.

This can't be happening.

"I can't... I can't do this alone Tess. I need you. I need your help." I beg as I rake my hands through my hair, trying not to let panic get the best of me.

I can't say the same for her roommate, she looks like she is about to freak out.

"What's going on? Where's Lunar?" She asks and I feel like the walls are closing in on me.

How could I have done this to her?
She begged me to stay, and I...I didn't.

God, what have I done?
Where could she be?

"Where is she? What's happening?" She insists now and I sigh.
I don't know how to handle all this at once but I needed her help.

"Listen, I know Lunar is going to reach out to you." I say as steadily as I can, trying not to let my emotions get the better of me.

"Reach out? What happened to her?!" Her face is enveloped in panic and her voice is rising.

"I just need a chance to fix this....And you're the only chance I've got. Whenever she speaks to you, I need you to please ask her where she is. Please."

She nods slowly, even though she still looks confused.

"And then I need you to tell me her location. She is out there and she's all alone and I need to be with her. I need to talk to her. You're the only hope I have in making this right." I plead and watch her eyes get watery.

But she nods anyway.

"Okay." She says quietly.

"Please, Theressa. I'll be waiting for your call." I say and leave quickly.

I was running out of time.
She could be anywhere.

So far as she's somewhere that she knows I won't be able to find her. But that's the last thing she needs...To be alone.

I should be with her. Now.
Wherever she is.

I should hold her close to me.
I should wipe her tears and say all the things I didn't say.
The things that would have set everything right.
Tell her I'm sorry.
That I never should have gone drinking with those childish jerks.

Tell her nothing they say defines who she is.
Tell her the beauty of who she is.

....Tell her how much I love her.

The last thing I need is for my baby to give up on me.

And so I get in my car and spend hours searching.

And searching.

And searching.

All the while waiting for Tess's call...But it never comes.