I'm not really sure how life works. Life just seems like a slut, honestly. It fucks us all then for some of us, it leaves the next morning; right when it was getting good.
According to, well, mostly everyone, I'm not only the most hottest girl in school. I'm the most sluttiest.
I should be ashamed, to even say that without a stutter.
But I only am, what I am, because of one guy. Not that it matters, anyway.
But maybe it does, because that's what led me to become the prettiest girl on campus. In a way, I thank this guy, this one fantasical guy. I haven't seen him years and for some reason, I'm tempted to. I want him to see what he destroyed, yet what he created. But then again, even if this guy wanted me back, I would walk straight up to him, a proud smirk on my face, and say,
"You Can't Have it All."
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I try to not remember the egotistical guy in the eighth grade that I had a crush on. The word 'crush' is the most absurd thing I believe has ever been classified as a word.
Do you 'crush' the guy that you like, or does he 'crush' you when you realize he doesn't like you back? I guess that's even more terrifying than love itself. I've never been through it, nor do I want to.
But getting back to this guy, in the eighth grade. Graham Phillips, slender, charming, tidy, talented, and simply overall sweet; the perfect guy, that every girl wanted.
Every girl including myself. Long story short, we were in a relationship for about three years. I stopped counting the weeks and days after he began counting the beds he had slept in with other girls.
You could say that I was Virgin Mary or whatever, but I was between the ages of thirteen and sixteen. Being careful was an understatement.
I was being safe.
However, after Graham left me alone at Homecoming, with the implausible excuse that he had to use the restroom (which he spent a worrying amount of time in, I was forced to think that he had to let out a load), I went to check up on him, and I caught him once again, with who?
Jennette Mccurdy. Blonde, all smiles, faker than a silicon barbie doll on the inside. It was almost a movie.
I wasn't as heartbroken as I thought, but I was humilated by the rest of the student body.
But that's just one example.
But I don't have enough time. As I stepped out of the shower, I rush to put my clothes on, tripping over my own feet as I slip on my skirt, and top. My eyes darted towards my digital clock;
7:39 AM, it read. That triggered something in me, and I was in front of my bathroom sink and mirror before I could count to four. I begin my morning routine, the make up, and the shade of red lipstick. I decide to straighten my hair, but I have to work fast, so I go with it.
By the time I have finished straightening my hair, I check the clock again, and I realize I have no time to even ponytail it so I leave it down. I pull on my knee high white boots, masking the fact that I was only five feet tall.
My hand fumbles to find my handbag filled with my books, then I race down the stairs, and grab my keys.
Sadly, I didn't notice the five billion text messages from my best friend, Alexa.
Except one.
Hurry up and get here.
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You Can't Have it All || a.g
FanfictionLabeled, misjudged, well known, and well dressed; Ariana Grande is a student at a College and has an impressive reputation. She owns it. Popular and sexy, yet humble and down to earth, Ariana is the most liked girl in school. When an old acquantice...