At night, when the stars light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the moon
Trying to get to you
In hopes you're on the other side, talking to me too
Or am I a fool
talking to the moon- bruno mars
≪ shawn mendes
shawn landed in new york, everyone around him clapped. shawn just rolled his eyes and carried on to leaving the airport.
while he waited, he checked his social media, finding out that all of alice's social media was deactivated.
he wondered if it was because of him. if he was too much of a pushover. shawn has to rethink their text messages and why he wanted to confess all his feelings so badly. yet he was relieved that the message did not send because if it did, he didn't want alice's reaction to be negative. lily has already damaged his heart. he can't take anymore rejection from alice.
shawn felt like he needed to take a break from all of it. the spotlight, the overthinking, and maybe even from dating. shawn knew that he was part of the problem too. if he didn't have feelings for alice maybe him and lily would still be together. or if he had met alice before lily, maybe alice and him would be together. but no matter how shawn puts it, he wouldn't change a thing. his experiences with lily, his relationship with her, shaped him. even though she cheated on him, he could never thank her enough for being in his life.
shawn wiped his face, he teared up without noticing it. shawn took a deep breathe. he knew he needed alcohol in his system to forget his problem. yet he also knew that the effects of alcohol was only temporary and he needed to fund a solution to his problem before it wears off.
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hi hi- so idk if anyone still reads this after like... 2/3 years? anywho i'll try to be back pls lmk if you do still read this :)
