Confession

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• Joe's pov •

I couldn't keep it to myself anymore but I couldn't embarrass myself either ; so I ran off to Zalfie's house.

* ding dong *

"Hey Joe! Alfie!! Joe's here!" My older sister shouted up to her boyfriend as she welcomed my into their house. They had done it up since the last time I stayed and it looked amazing. Rose gold items showered the shelves of the hallway, the kitchen shone with copper pans hanging from the walls, cosy blankets and pillows covered the sofa and the guest bedroom had a bed that looked like it belonged in a magazine.
I was amazed at what my sister could do with a house and a couple of items.

"So then, why're you here? Not that I mind it's just, well, I wasn't expecting you until next month." We were all sat in the living room crunching on snacks. I looked down at my feet with shyness and I sighed. I had to say something now, my sister would always respect me no matter what.

I took a deep breath and looked up.
"Zoe. I, erm, I'm gay....."
Tears formed in my eyes as I waited for her to shout at me; but it never came. Zoe embraced me and held me close.
"It's okay Joe, I love you no matter who you like. Alfie and I are always here for you, aren't we Alf?" I looked over at the man sitting on my other side, he smiled and nodded.
"Of course we are buddy. You're still the Joe Sugg we all love, nothing can change that!"

I cried with happiness. My sister accepted me and I would be forever grateful for it. Tears fell down my cheek and Zoe smiled. Before I knew what was happening, I was the middle of a Zalfie hug. It was comforting.

A couple hours later and we sat down for a takeaway, when my phone buzzed.

Maynard💕 - Hey! Just wanna know if you're okay. You're not answering your calls or your doorbell. Hope you're okay! X

A smile crept onto my face, he cared. The boy I liked cared for me.
The room around me fell silent, I looked up and saw both Zoe and Alfie smirking away.
"So who is it?" My sister said, I was very confused.
"What are you on bout Zo?"
"Oh you know, the way you were smiling down at your phone and the colour of your face. By the way, it's bright red." My face blushed even harder, if that's possible.
"So who made you smile? You tell me or I'll just have to find out!" Zoe leaped at my phone, I could not let her see my messages.

After what seemed like hours of wrestling Zoe, I gave up.
"Okay! Okay! Fine, I'll tell you." Zoe finally stood down and sat quietly. Alfie laughed at Zoe's reaction.
"It's Jack, Jack Maynard...."
Screaming came from Zoe as she hugged me tight.
"He's perfect for you!! Have you told him?" She asked and I sighed, How could I tell Jack that I liked him? I didn't even know if he was gay or bi! Sinking down into the sofa, I shook my head.

Zoe shook her head at me, holding out her hand, reaching for my phone.
Not wanting another fight, I handed it to her. I didn't know what she was doing but if I knew my sister well, it would be a good thing.

She handed it back and showed me what she'd done.

Me - Hey Jack! Yes I'm okay, just at Zoe's. It's cute that you wanna know how I am. Meet you my flat tomorrow afternoon, there's something I need to tell you x

"Zoe! You can't say that! Now I'm gonna have to go back! Zoe!" I was really mad with her but if she didn't do that then there was no way I was gonna confess.
She smirked, got up and said goodnight.
"Better get your beauty sleep for Jack tomorrow!" I gave her an evil look and went to bed myself.

( morning )

I woke up to my favourite song playing loudly from a speaker.
"Wake up Joe! You've got a long drive ahead of you! Get up and ready!" Zoe was shouting at the top of voice.
Then it came to me, today was the day I told Jack how I felt. I sat up and rubbed my head, turns out listening to loud music when you first wake up gives you a banging headache.

Half an hour later and I was sat in the car with Zalfie humming along to songs. They offered to come with me for moral support and that they wanted to see if I actually told him or not.

"So then Joe, what you gonna do when Jack arrives?" We were nearly at mine and I was beginning to panic a lot.
"I'm gonna welcome him in, watch a few things on Netflix then tell him." This was the plan, if I stuck to it or not was the real question.

I was so lost in thought that Zoe had to literally slap me to gain my attention.
We were at my flat.
Zoe and Alfie entered the living room to see bottles everywhere. I had completely forgotten about my nervous drinking spree.
"What is this all about Joe?" Zoe asked, she had her hands upon her hips and she looked angry. Angry Zoe was a nightmare to look after.
I shuffled on my feet and sighed,
"I had a drinking spree. I began beating myself up because I didn't accept myself. I thought it would help but it didn't so I drove to yours the next day. I'm sorry."

Zoe looked shocked and speechless.
"Joe, you do realise that drinking doesn't solve any problems. Don't beat yourself up because of your sexuality! Learning to accept yourself is hard but once you've done it, it feels amazing. Just tell us that you won't do it again." Alfie said, he looked concerned for me. I wasn't surprised at both of their reactions, I would of been the same. I felt really bad and I apologised many times.

My sister embraced me and we all began to tidy up. We'd just finished binning the last can when my doorbell went off. Alfie smiled at me and said
"Go get your man"

To be continued ....

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