Yoooooooooooooooo ok so I'm not getting thrown into a looney bin! Yay!
I'm also gonna see a psychiatrist on January 22nf cause my depression has been... I'm just fucked at this point.
I stopped cutting, now I punch walls until my knuckles bleed, so that's fun. Thanks for the advice grandma.
I also sometimes stick needles into my skin or burn it. So yeah but I still don't cut.
I've just been feeling more and more like shit and it's been getting worse and worse. I feel like life is just a problem, I don't want to do anything, even eat or drink, I've been loosing a lot of weight because of that. Since we have two weeks off of school I haven't left my room at all, unless I have to go to bathroom. I shut out all my friends out of my life because I didn't want none of us to get hurt and I just feel like I don't deserve them, that they don't care about me, that I'm just a problem for them. I just feel helpless and hopeless. I feel like I don't matter. And I don't. I've been getting a lot of panic attacks as well. I lost interest in absolutely everything. But I still don't want to take pills. I just want to be normal. That's why I don't talk about being trans as much anymore as well. I just want to be normal.
On the good side I've been able to my emotions with nothingness better. I just hide them all. I don't show sadness or anything at all (not that I feel a lot of emotions) so that's cool.
Yeah.
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CasualeThe title says it all. And yeah, sorry if you get lost on this name deal. I change my name too often so I stopped changing it in this book so it won't get annoying. Currently call me Simon. The cover was drawn by me (see I'm rad and can totally d...
